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Soul Musings/Day 24: Heart Opening

Heart-Opening

The greatest possibilities lay in wait as a human heart is freed to open. Speaking language that is birthed from a clear and open space of stillness – of Being.

A space that speaks not of what we have done, but of who we are in our highest expression. Nor of the accomplishments we have on our resume, but the ways we have made a prayer of listening to another.

Every moment is an opportunity to love if we would just breathe into the possibility of connection. Allowing vulnerability to flourish instead of hiding.

Knowing that in our humanness we have been given a gift beyond imagining.

A gift to give until the end of time….

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Inspiring New Possibilities, Living From the Soul of Life While Co-creating Well Being of Body, Being, Heart and Planet….One Breath At A Time

Soul Musings is a 31-day practice for the month of December immersed in deep listening to what is emerging and unfolding day by day.  Eight sentences with occasional resources to explore more deeply.

Each post, invited by Soul, allows the words to emerge unscathed from prior planning, editing, or censorship.  Dwelling in uncertainty and dipping a toe into mystery this union of words is an attempt to resonate within an innate way of Being…. returning “home”.

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To Be Or Not To Be….

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“Wherever you are no matter how lonely, the world offers itself to your imagination, calls to your like the wild geese, harsh and exciting – over and over announcing your place in the family of things.”
Mary Oliver

….that is the question!  To be or not to be.  We struggle to know ourselves throughout our lives not realizing that it is a simple task of being present to what is emerging moment to moment within our being.  Not the labels that we have taken on to define us, but instead something much vaster that keeps us yearning for something that seems just out of our reach, yet is right there in our imagination and deeply imprinted in the cells of our body – in our very heart, spirit and soul – coming home to the sacredness of our innate being.

Even for those that don’t get “the lingo” that I just used – you know what I am talking about..  This place of living comes from having engaged the patterns, stories and beliefs that have held us captive within an exterior lived life and that have kept us basing our actions on what is important to those that touch our lives more than what comes from our authentic expression.  At some point in time this engagement has kept us alive and surviving – sometimes quite nicely thank you very much.

Now, what the global shift we are undertaking asks from each of us is to heal and clear away those engagements that no1045166_530216187026429_838979867_n-1 longer serve us and to re-engage from a place of deep authentic awareness of who we are and what type of service we are here to offer.  This is a far cry from what most of us have lived most of our lives.  This wild “soul nature” is directly connected with the natural world.  In fact, we are the natural world. So many have long ago forgotten this and given themselves away to a paradigm of mechanistic thinking that now threatens the very planet that we live upon and has impacted every segment of our society.

For me one of the places that I find this engagement with “soul” is on the ecstatic dance and contact improv dance floor.  Here there is no leader and no follower.  Instead the “dance” is based on what is emerging from and through you in every moment.  There is complete freedom here for one to explore what is yearning to be expressed in a safe, loving and playful environment.  I have always stated “I desire to live my life in the way in which I dance” – free, natural and from a deep soul expression.  Aging has it’s compensations – I am coming closer to this every day!

Another place I find this deep sacred self engagement is within the energy work that I offer to people.  Deep listening, trust, heartfelt engagement and embodiment create the knowing where I am to place my hands next.  The evolutionary component comes into place as I sense and feel the blueprint of the individuals energy system returning home to harmony and wholeness.  This then sparks the transformation of the system to “upgrade”, thus deeply supporting the individuals “coming home to themSelves” in a way that translates into their everyday life.

For the rest of this year I invite each of you to make a real, honest heartfelt invitation to your soul to “turn up the volume” as Sera Beak says in her new book, Red, Hot and Holy: A Heretics Love Story, thus  “becoming more present and active in your awareness, body and ordinary life”. 

Bruce Lipton, Ph.D., an internationally recognized stem cell biologist and leader in bridging science and spirituality proposes that Darwinian evolution theories are not holding up to what quantum scientists are now finding.  It is now coming to light that each leap in evolution happened because at some point the membrane of a particular organism was stretched as far as it could go to the point of bursting, thus the evolutionary urge brought the organisms together to form a new collaborative life form to expand the potential of the new organism.  They had to expand their container (or cell membrane) in order to continue to live!

With the advent of internet and other forms of connecting we are now recognizing that the very core of life is deeply interconnected and that the fate of ourselves and the planet depends on collaboration, acceptance and coming together in innovative, compassionate and creative ways. This form of new life depends on each person inhabiting more clearly a rooted sense and embodiment of their purpose here and taking actions from that authentic expression and wild Source.  This translates to expanding our old containers for they have become too small for our being.

As we move into the holidays I extend this invitation to come into them with as much of YOU on board as possible.  By that I mean not succumbing to the mind numbing stress that can happen this time of year and more gracefully relating to family, friends and co-workers from a very grounded and whole sense of yourself.

Our growth and awareness often comes in small increments, but it is in simply saying yes to the sacred journey of life that this expansion becomes rooted.

May your holidays be the best that you have ever experienced!

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How you breathe is the way in which you live your life.  If this statement is true, then how would you like to breathe?  Shallow and restricted or full bodied and naturally?

Use a focus each week for the entire year to promote the vibrant aliveness that is your natural birth right!

 

The Journey

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice —
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
“Mend my life!”
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do —
determined to save
the only life you could save.
~ Mary Oliver ~

The intimate connection between ourselves, others and each life form that inhabits this planet, and beyond, has gained more and more recognition.  Our collective memories, both individual and from the past, oftentimes keep us stuck in the shame that Richard spoke of in the last post.  These embodied emotional and physical traumas leak body memories to our consciousness that have us forgetting the very nature of who we are.

In yoga class this morning we were asked to listen to the poem above by Mary Oliver and move from a place of remembering – remembering who we are – without the voices from the past or the ones of the present directing the particular life moment.  Often our eyes were closed as we stepped into the flow of what was unwinding from our core – instead of someone else’s direction.

What is it like to follow that inner knowing, dropping silently inside capturing the whisperings of that inner insistence on the uniqueness of truth, movement, actions, and feelings in any one moment.  What are we afraid of?  Or is it that we can hardly hear the  voice of our own unique being for all the demands and stimulus around us.

Yes, the only life we can save – living as uniquely as possible – is our own.  There are more and more moments these days when I feel the solid strength of what this is like.   One of those places is hanging out on an ecstatic dance floor where the “rule” is to have no self imposed restrictions, but instead to explore, listen and move from that place of complete connection to the greater energy that moves us all.

Old patterns of being and moving melt away as the intention for everyone on the dance floor becomes a moving art piece of breath, movement, contact, exploration, play and absolute love and respect.  For someone that loves dance it is a “home coming” to the deepest parts of who we are.

The film Jane’s Journey, shows us someone who listened to her own unique voice in spite of what others might have wanted for her.  For someone like Jane Goodall it was a simple very deeply felt passion that moved her as a young woman to follow her childhood dreams.  Now at 78 she is still traveling the world speaking her truth and impacting millions of people to care for each other and our planet in the most compassionate, loving and peaceful of ways.

What price is taken when we step away from the journey that is uniquely our own?  We become lost in the thoughts and actions of others and forget that we have come here to create and love as only we can do and be.  Today a young man who had never received flowers from a woman was gifted with a single flower of beauty as he sat at his check out stand at the local organic food store.  This happened because I heard loud and clear the voice that directed me to take this loving action as I left the store the first time I was there. What impact did this have?  Let’s just say I am still smiling….and I am certain so is he.

Choose a journey that reflects the magnificence of who you are and do not listen to anyone or anything that takes you away from that knowing!

Listen….

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Chaotic Wholeness: Handing Over My Life

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.~Albert Einstein

Dear Richard –

Something very powerful has settled within me.  It is actually astounding…and feels as if I have “come home” in the most profound way.  This is a home within that I know, dwelled in sporadically over the years,  yet couldn’t seem to stay in.

For you the reader, let me just say that this “home sanctuary” inside brings me heightened pleasure in all that I do and a sense of deep belonging – not necessarily to the world that we can all see, but instead to something much larger that cannot be explained in words.  It is that interconnection that you Richard speak of.

How did this happen?  I understand in a more embodied way now that this chaotic wholeness that you speak of Richard resonates within me and all living things in the cosmos.  I understand that there is an order present within the seeming disorder….inside and outside of me.  Yet, I did not trust this order.  Instead, for most of my life, I felt that I must control things in life to stay “safe” and “secure” – a belief/thought systems approach to guaranteeing that I would never feel fully free.

I too know deep within my cells that everything is interconnected.  This interconnection and attraction is happening in every moment.  Now I feel it!  It is not just mind talk….it is heart whispering!  What happened to nudge me where I am now staying within myself??

Since I can make up any story I want (and mind you I am aware it is only a story)  here goes.  I have literally handed over my life to inner guidance, outward signs and messages, and following wherever my heart takes me. Along with that goes complete and absolute TRUST.  Not just some of the time, but all of the time.

Oh, yes I catch my mind cooking up schemes to take me into fear, lack, or anxiety, but thankfully I must have passed some sort of God/Spirit/Creator test because it amazingly doesn’t stick.  My mind is turning back flips trying to get my attention…but baby I am not buying the old beliefs being paraded out in new clothes and razzle dazzle in an attempt to disguise the true agenda here – to keep me stuck, in doubt, anxiety ridden, fear based, and in a carefully constructed box for safe keeping.

Could it be as simple as that I ask?  Well if you were living my life right now you would have to take notice.  The amount of synchronicity that happens on a daily basis – that I now notice mind you – is amazing!  For just one small example I will tell you a little story:

10 days ago now I decided to take a little early evening walk in the condo complex that I am living in, temporarily housed by a very generous and gracious friend by the name of Judy.  On that walk the first thing that I realized was that it was not only peaceful and quiet where I was staying, but the entire complex was like that (right in the middle of Central Austin!).

Not only that, but the mature trees everywhere, the landscaping, creeks and green space that surround the entire complex, friendly diverse residents,  and the natural beauty left me walking back home with a smile on my face and happiness within.  I felt blessed to simply live here for a while until I found a place of my own.

Then it happened.  That small whisper of guidance telling me to imagine that I did have a place of my own here….a home sanctuary where I could do my creative work and feel at peace within a community…and very close to everything that I frequent.  In fact not more than 10 minutes from organic food, yoga studio, spring fed lap pool, live music, culture, walking paths around the lake…well, you get the picture.

It should be noted that before I moved here I had been looking at lease listings near the downtown area and had set my sights on being right in the middle of everything.  Once here, I realized that perhaps that “must” should dissolve into “let’s see what unfolds itself”.  It was from that place of handing over that I took that walk.

The heart direction was obviously telling me to imagine myself living in the complex, but I took it one step further from leasing.  I expanded that vision to buying something in the complex (even though my current financial status would not indicate that was possible at all!)  It felt like the Divine Design that Richard speaks of was taking me down a path of discovery here.

When I returned back to the condo that I am currently staying at I spoke to Judy about how I felt about the complex on my walk and that I would like to consider leasing, or even buying a unit here.  She was thrilled and, of course, had a Home Owners Association newsletter right next to her and showed me the addresses of the units for rent and those to buy.  She suggested that perhaps I should contact my real estate agent and have her show me some properties that were for sale, and also call the owner of the one for lease.

I dutifully kept following through by my hearts GPS and e-mailed my real estate contact.  The owner for the unit for rent did not answer his phone, and there was surprisingly no message machine.  Going to bed imaging that I was living here in my own home sanctuary, I woke up in the morning to find a note on the refrigerator from Judy.  It said, “please include me in looking at the Hemingway property (one of the few single story units here) because I may buy it”!  Needless to say I laughed out loud.  Perhaps it wasn’t right timing for me to buy…but someone else was going to buy it and lease it to me!

Without getting any lengthier in this story I will just say that I have held the possibility of  living in this complex within me.  We did go see the Hemingway property, and a couple of others.  Within 3 days of my declaring that I was happily living here, Judy put an offer down on the single story 3- bedroom/2 bath  unit opening onto a green space with beautiful trees, and the sellers accepted it which was $11,000 less that what they had been asking for.

Judy gets here investment property, I receive a home sanctuary, and I am still smiling at the miracle that unfolded right before my eyes!  Listen to the heart directed inner guidance, take action from that guidance….and then hand it over.  It may not go exactly as you envisioned it to, but it will always be the right thing to happen for your highest good.

My mantra for each dayGuide me.  Protect me.  I will follow through from your guidance leading with my heart.  Thank you for your guidance that you give to me.  I am always open to receive more and more.  I surrender with courage, trust, faith, passion, and  arms open wide.

Would you like to live your life as if everything is a miracle?  Thanks Richard!

P.S.  Judy just told me she was able to lock in an interest rate at the low end which just changed today due to the economic climate here in the U.S.  I had written down that she would get an interest rate at 5% or less.  It was less: 4.75%!

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Uncomfortable Territory – Expanding Consciousness

Expanding consciousness is the riskiest enterprise on earth. We endanger the status quo. We endanger our comfort. And if we do not have the nerve  to resolve the ensuing conflicts, we endanger our sanity.   – Marilyn Feguson

When one embarks on changing the status quo of their life the ensuing adventure (for that is what I would like to call it) is filled with “wake up calls” all along the way – or what Richard has called “Divine nudges”. We are given the opportunity to choose an act of fear or an act of love….and to decide whether we are in old beliefs that no longer serve us, or trust and faith that we are being lead in exactly the right direction for the next step along the path.

This past week there were two wake up calls that made me realize that things are heating up a bit since I decided to move to Austin in a couple of months (and I don’t mean the Texas weather either!). By heating up I mean events that allow me to see the deeper contractions or beliefs that will ultimately get in my way as I expand both personally, in this relocation shift, and in my creative endeavors.

Have any of you had a glitch in the gas gauge of your car? This particular malfunction had those little bars that show how much gas you have not showing a full tank when I decided to scrimp a bit and only fill partially. Well there seemed to be two things going on here (besides the mechanical reason for this incident). One was the contraction around filling the tank completely due to distrust of a flow of wealth.

The second was even more revealing. Although I had a full tank of gas to drive to Portland the little bars were not reflecting that at all, but instead were telling me that it was definitely time to get gas. It was then that I realized I routinely checked that gauge constantly (like every few minutes it seemed!) and now I had to TRUST that all was well and that I had plenty of gas without being able to see the visible signs of it on my gauge.

Well, at first it was OK because I knew that I had just filled the tank up. Then as a few days passed I felt the discomfort in seemingly “not knowing” whether I had “enough” or not. Finally I got it! I did have enough gas to get me where I was going because when it was time to get more then one of the 3 bars would disappear.  Big breath….relaxing now!

However, I had to feel this, and trust my intuition and knowing because it was not visible to my eye (and my mind was too busy having an anxiety attack!) The questions before me reflected a far greater belief system of scarcity – How many other ways in my life do I not trust my knowing? How often do I discount the resources that are within me (my own inner gas tank) and actually all around, because I can’t see the evidence?

Acting from fear and scarcity only brought on more of the same. Acting from a knowing of wealth and “enough”, which certainly to me translates into coming from a place of love and trust,  gently pushed me along the way towards acceptance that everything would be OK,

Next post will tell the story of the second wake up call – a tale of reaching a self imposed limit to receiving….ouch!!… all in the same week!  Your turn Richard!

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