Posted by Gaye Abbott
I had a conversation with Richard a couple of days ago and the opportunity arose to express to him about an insight I had on what I will now call the “Stop Short Syndrome” This Syndrome has contributed to the sabotage of many things in my life such as a comfortable stream of monetary wealth, and the full embodiment of the gifts I have to bring out into the world (another kind of wealth – full creative expression without holding back, stopping short, or turning back!).
I wonder how many of you have stopped just short of success or wealth in your life, as I certainly have many times over. It could be in relationship, profession, artistic expression, achieving vibrant health, deep spiritual realizations – well you know what I mean!
It is like standing on the high diving board that I remember as a teenager, peering down at the water, and then backing off slowly as I just couldn’t see myself flying through the air into the unknown territory below. But there was a part of me that so wanted to take that leap!
What is this enigma that keeps us falling short of what we really desire? Since nothing ever happens twice the same way it seems rather short sighted of us to base our actions of today on the beliefs of yesterday, which we are trained to do as Richard has alluded to. We are not even the same person we were 5 seconds ago as everything is always changing.
Reflecting on all of this an “Aha moment” grabbed me a few days ago and one of my favorite quotes by Marianne Williamson arose in my consciousness. I am certain many of you already know it, but here it is:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Marianne Williamson
This “fear” that arises and falls away in most everyones life at some point has us believing “who am I to _______?!” You fill in the blank. Well, as Williamson says above – who are you not to!! This cracking open to the awareness of holding back, or stopping short, just when things are starting to get really good, is keeping me presently very entertained. Entertained because for the most part the runway is clear for take off and landing now!
It is just when we are breaking through barriers that the small little voice wants to tell us“who are you to _______” You fill in the blank again. Instead we recognize that we can rewrite the script of that little voice (that can be as loud as you want it to be) to say something like, “Step into that outrageously brilliant expression of yours. You are here for a purpose that I see lights you up whenever you engage in it. Go Light up the world!”
In answer to your question posed at the end of your last post Richard, I would rather take each breath guided by the illogically consistent heart as it resonates with everything in existence. I surrender!! No contest. Thank you Richard! Continuing on the journey….
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