“The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.” -Alan Watts
This evening in a restorative yoga class in my new home of Austin, Texas, where we did partner work in a Thai Massage style, the teacher in his quiet and grounded voice said, “you can let go now of those areas that you are holding onto. Trust that someone has your back”. He had no idea how deeply this hit me in that moment.
It came to me quite clearly that although I have said to myself, you Richard, and others that I am in trust about the unfolding of my life, the truth of the matter is that there are parts of me that are showing up rather strongly now that have no idea how to trust, especially when it comes to monetary wealth streams – just one of the many energetic ways that wealth shows up in our lives.
Yes, this relocation to a new city – which was completely my choice mind you – represents an opportunity to practice the Universal Laws of Wealth and abundant living way beyond anything I have ever done before. I imagine that I must be ready.
Several things converged to make my first couple of days a little challenging including a rather bad case of bronchitis (I never get sick!) which started in the time I was in my “home” town of San Diego 4 days before my arrival here. After that last post that you did Richard it gave me pause to see just where I might be contracting, and perhaps not in complete alignment with this chosen journey.
In addition, great change can be stressful and when our entire lives are dumped upside down (again by choice!) the emotional reactions can cause some imbalance in the body. At these times we know that it is best to rest, but sometimes that may not be possible, or we may choose not to.
Coming back around to trust I have decided that the signs that “someone has our back” are around us all of the time! From the day I quit the “job with benefits” on 7/1, to right now in this very moment I have been supported emotionally, physically, monetarily, spiritually, and basically taken care of in such an amazing way that I am still in awe! Family, friends, strangers, and you Richard have been the signposts along the way letting me know that “someone has my back”.
This evening as my body relaxed against the young woman in the yoga class who was supporting me in a pose the flash of recognition came that I was holding on, contracting, and doubting that it was OK to really trust. Not in the pose – but in my life!
My mind tells me that I have 3-4 weeks at most before some streams of income need to be coming in. Watching over the last few days since I arrived here there is a mental hesitation (and endless inner calculations) about spending money – any money.
Yet my heart knows what is needed right now so the herbs and good organic produce for the bronchitis and for vital health, the special for unlimited yoga classes for my body, heart and soul for the next month, saying yes to receive from a friend here who is temporarily graciously housing me free of any monetary charge, and putting gas in my car to explore this amazing new place I have landed myself in are all part of the trust.
I have decided that really being in the moment with dis-trust and dis-ease is just as powerful as those moments when absolute trust is on board. They are the life experiences which inform us that we are human….and crack us open to possibility.
So, I am plunging in, moving with it, and doing my own unique dance knowing that someone/something (force of Spirit) always has my back. Now get up and dance with me to Eric Bibbs Don’t Let Nobody Drag Your Spirit Down! It’s all life!!
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