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Breathe and Trust – While Wings Are Drying

In my own worst seasons
I’ve come back from the colorless world of despair
by forcing myself to look hard, for a long time, at a single glorious thing:

A flame of red geranium outside my bedroom window.
And then another: My daughter in a yellow dress.
And then another: A perfect outline of a dark sphere behind the crescent moon.

Until I learned to be in love with life again,
like a stroke victim retraining new parts of the brain to grasp lost skills,

I have taught myself joy,
over and over again….                   – Barbara Kingsolver

I found my mind yesterday putting attention on what is not present in my life instead of what is already abundant.  What happened is that I went down into the despair that Barbara Kingsolver talks about above.  I lost myself in a world where I could not even conceive of the limitless possibilities and opportunities that are certainly ready to show themselves to me as my dragonfly wings dry in preparation for flight in my new home.

What is it about the human mind that seeks ahead of the moment, that fixates on the “I don’t have this relationship, money flowing in, health, etc.” and completely ignores what is present right now, while not trusting that all is unfolding itself just as it should?

What is it that has us ignoring the incredible beauty before us which points to our natural wealth that is almost certainly renewing itself in many and various forms in our every moment?

Well, my mind, I suspect, is just as dangerous a place at times as the next person for it really took me for a ride until I realized with a sudden lightening bolt of awareness that there is so much abundance in my life right now…..and MORE is coming!  Before that however, I wrote to you Richard saying:

My mind is attempting to figure out the whole of what is going on here with this continued illness and how best to support myself to come back into balance.  The truth of the matter is that I am having a bit of a hard time.

Part of the emotional release yesterday, which came and went moving fluidly through my body, was admitting that I am scared Richard.  Part of that feels like it arises from not feeling well for what feels like a long time, and the other part is all of the opportunities (that I can’t see very clearly yet, but trust that they are there) before me in this new territory. 

I want to stay true to my heart and the direction of my soul.  Old stuff seems to be intermingled with new stuff. Everything feels like it has been thrown up in the air and I have no idea where all the pieces will land or what relationship I will have with them. “

Interrupting the e-mail to you for a morning yoga class I repeated the mantra you gave me of “I am ready and everything is happening in perfect time” while I drove to the class.   Then I heard that wise inner voice say “you are working at trying to heal yourself instead of surrendering to the wisdom (and cycle) of this illness and resting within the messages that it has for you”.  (wise inner voice gets quote marks!)

In other words taking the time for my wings to dry before flying off into new territory.  The synchronicity of the class was perfect of course and focused on breath opening and finding at least 3 things that we found joy and beauty in during the 90-minute class.  The Barbara Kingslover  poem above happened to be the hand out given to us at the beginning of class.

During the first part of class, when realizing that my breath capacity was immensely decreased and endurance was shaky at best, instead of worrying I watched the breath expand and my shakiness diminish as the class progressed.  Giving myself permission to rest as needed and placing myself in the hands of the teachers guidance (receiving), all I could see and feel was grace and a resonance with my breath (diminished or not!).

As a guide to coming home to authentic and natural breathing,  I have told so many students, just witness the breath and see what gifts and messages it has to bring within each inhale and exhale.  See how your present pattern of breathing reflects your life experience.  Are you acting from fear or love?

Then, if you are not having the life experience you desire, shift your breathing  from contracted and restricted to open and receptive and see what happens.   Like that newborn that is so ready to take that first big inhale and holler (and yes I did Richard!) we have an amazing tool at our disposal.  It is no accident that this temporary illness has affected my breathing passages so acutely.  There is a renewed trust in the wisdom that it has to bring.

As with following the heart and intuition, trusting in the unfolding of ones life also increases the amount of synchronicity that occurs.  Within the last few days there has been an increase in this department.

In addition to the yoga class focus (just for me of course!) there was the turquoise craftsman that showed up as I walked past the Artisan’s Alley on a main street of Austin a few days ago.  Mind you this is before I received your last post Richard.

I was drawn to the turquoise and when asking the craftsman about a particular piece, he was happy to share that this bracelet that I had in my hand was made in Mexico near Sleeping Beauty mine and was very high quality.  Did I notice that it had a clasp in the shape of a heart on it?  I thanked Frank who has been making jewelry for over 30 years, paid my $7, and put the bracelet on as I walked back to my car.

Then after reading your last post Richard I was struck by the synchronicity and realized that I had made a necklace a year ago while I was in Santa Fe, New Mexico, and it incorporated turquoise in the design with a heart locket right at center.  No onyx in that necklace, but a visit to the local bead shop has fixed that.

I am learning that the path to Natural Wealth is paved with trust, faith, synchronicity, lots of color, textures, smells, and rich sounds……and much more.  I look  forward to learning about the “much more”.  I am breathing here….and my wings are still drying….

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Overcoming The Fear of Success

Dear Gaye,

Firstly, happy landings in your new home! I totally understand how you are feeling. It’s a common reaction for everyone who “takes the leap” into following intuition rather than logic. You’ve had years of following one way of doing things, so expect to feel the shifts happening in your body as it recalibrates.

On top of that you have moved to a new environment in a city where little is familiar. Relocating on its own (without free-flying from the job) puts various challenges in our paths, not least because everyone tells us how “stressful” it is. So how do you deal with the fears that rise up from your subconscious into your conscious mind?

Well, here are some immediate suggestions:

Firstly, deny the possibility of fatigue or dis-ease coming to you as a result of the move. Remember the phrase “Movement is the barometer of the soul” from last week? Your movements are constricted in some way, because of your natural fear of not having those things that you are used to around you. So, make a clear statement that affirms your health and energy (rather than focusing on not being tired). Repeat that statement until you feel its meaning seeping all the way from your fingertips to your toes. The feeling is the crucial part.

Secondly, use some of the stones or crystals that will help you. Some people smile at such advice, thinking it’s very “New Age”. It’s actually very old-age! Little is older than the rocks and crystals around us and if you stop to think about it, we’re all pretty much 100% crystalline. The water and blood in our bodies is crystalline, as are our brain cells, including those crystals of magnetite at the center of the brain. Magnetite is what give us our sense of direction, helping us “get home in the dark”. So, to help you find your new sense of direction, your “homing instinct”, try the following crystals/stones in whatever form works for you (rings, necklaces or simply unworked rocks).

Turquoise and onyx are the ones for you just now. Quite a color combo! They’ll help both lift your spirits and provide the foundation energy you are looking for. Wear them, have them out in your rooms, whatever works best. Both are the traditional birthstones of your birth month (although you won’t find that info on most sites about them).

Turquoise has been used for centuries as a healing stone. Being blue, it corresponds to the throat chakra so will help you find your voice in your new environment. It is also known as one of the truth stones. Speaking your truth (which is what you do so honestly and genuinely in this blog) is crucial to your ongoing success. It’s a part of you showing that you walk the walk whilst talking the talk. Turquoise is known to help ground the body, especially for those with wandering spirits (!) helping you to free your spirit by articulating things that are dear to your heart. Interestingly, it was often used to treat the lungs and respiratory system, so I suggest the best usage for this stone is to have a piece hung around your neck, reaching as close to your lungs/heart as possible.

Onyx on the other hand is a stone of self-mastery, helping you regain your vigor, strength and vibrancy. Not specifically a healing stone, it is appropriate for you more for its qualities of helping you release old patterns of thoughts/beliefs and protecting you from the fear that you’re feeling. It’s mystical number is 6, the number of material creation, but it corresponds both to the first and fifth chakras, meaning that it will not only help ground and calm you, it will also help the turquoise in giving you confidence to find and use your voice in a way that you have not felt free enough to do up to now.

Thirdly, wear red or rich terracotta colors when possible. Red, being the color of the first chakra, will be a great aid for your core energy.

On to the lungs: this is simply a reaction to the fear of moving into new territory. Remember the image of the dragonfly we used some weeks back? Well, you’re no longer crawling up the stem towards the surface of the pond. You’ve broken through, moving from liquid to air. You’re in a new environment. Nothing is quite the same. No job, no security of fixed income, no established friends in the area. Where is everything? How do you get acclimatised?

The answer is: everything you desire is at your fingertips. Don’t rush, hurry or worry. Take your time. Wisely and slow.

The dragonfly sits on that stalk for quite some time before its wings are dry enough for it to fly. It just sits and acclimatizes – and BREATHES! That’s the key here (and the reason for your lungs drawing attention to themselves): the requirement to simply breathe and be still for a moment. The temptation when we move home, especially when we have just left the job behind, is to rush at everything, especially in today’s world where everything is about “the need for speed”.

Take your time. Breathe. Acclimatize. This is an essential part of the process, a required hiatus before you spread your wings and “take off”.

It’s my guess that the last time you did something as huge as this was when you were born! That was the time when you last moved from liquid into air, when oxygen suddenly rushed down into your bronchial tubes and inflated your alveoli. You trusted the process then. You took that first breath. Yes, you may have screamed (knowing you, you probably gave a good ol’ holla!) but you carried on with the process, rather than crawling back into your mother’s womb.

In many ways you are going through a time of re-birth just now. So, keep the faith you had when you were in the womb. Keep the faith of the dragonfly as it sits waiting for its wings to dry. You will be flying soon enough.

One last thing: you say “I imagine that I must be ready.” Imagine instead that you ARE ready (must is usually a reductive word) and that everything is happening in perfect time. Imagine yourself experiencing all the elements of Natural Wealth right now: health, love, money, perfect self expressing and a contented spirit. Dwell on feeling success as having already been achieved. That way, you’re already there!

Until next time,

Love and best wishes,
Richard.

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Someone Has Your Back

“The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.” -Alan Watts

This evening in a restorative yoga class in my new home of Austin, Texas, where we did partner work in a Thai Massage style, the teacher in his quiet and grounded voice said, “you can let go now of those areas that you are holding onto. Trust that someone has your back”.  He had no idea how deeply this hit me in that moment.

It came to me quite clearly that although I have said to myself, you Richard, and others that I am in trust about the unfolding of my life, the truth of the matter is that there are parts of me that are showing up rather strongly now that have no idea how to trust, especially when it comes to monetary wealth streams – just one of the many energetic ways that wealth shows up in our lives.

Yes, this relocation to a new city – which was completely my choice mind you – represents an opportunity to practice the Universal Laws of Wealth and abundant living way beyond anything I  have ever done before.  I imagine that I must be ready.

Several things converged to make my first couple of days a little challenging including a rather bad case of bronchitis (I never get sick!) which started in the time I was in my “home” town of San Diego 4 days before my arrival here.   After that last post that you did Richard it gave me pause to see just where I might be contracting, and perhaps not in complete alignment with this chosen journey.

In addition, great change can be stressful and when our entire lives are dumped upside down (again by choice!) the emotional reactions can cause some imbalance in the body.  At these times we know that it is best to rest, but sometimes that may not be possible, or we may choose not to.

Coming back around to trust I have decided that the signs that “someone has our back” are around us all of the time!  From the day I quit the “job with benefits” on 7/1, to right now in this very moment I have been supported emotionally, physically, monetarily, spiritually, and basically taken care of in such an amazing way that I am still in awe!  Family, friends, strangers, and you Richard have been the signposts along the way letting me know that “someone has my back”.

This evening as my body relaxed against the young woman in the yoga class who was supporting me in a pose the flash of recognition came that I was holding on, contracting, and doubting that it was OK to really trust.  Not in the pose – but in my life!

My mind tells me that I have 3-4 weeks at most before some streams of income need to be coming in.  Watching over the last few days since I arrived here there is a mental hesitation (and endless inner calculations) about spending money – any money.

Yet my heart knows what is needed right now so the herbs and good organic produce for the bronchitis and for vital health, the special for unlimited yoga classes for my body, heart and soul for the next month, saying yes to receive from a friend here who is temporarily graciously housing me free of any monetary charge, and putting gas in my car to explore this amazing new place I have landed myself in are all part of the trust.

I have decided that really being in the moment with dis-trust and dis-ease is just as powerful as those moments when absolute trust is on board.   They are the life experiences which inform us that we are human….and crack us open to possibility.

So, I am plunging in, moving with it, and doing my own unique dance knowing that someone/something (force of Spirit) always has my back.   Now get up and dance with me to Eric Bibbs  Don’t Let Nobody Drag Your Spirit Down!  It’s all life!!

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Hawk Messages & The Path of Listening

Dear Gaye,

I was going to move on to different aspects of health, but your post about the hawk and messages from nature means we’ll walk a slightly different path today: the path of listening.

I’m completely with you on this one. We’re all brought messages from the world around us each and every day. The trick is to listen to them. And then act.

It’s funny you should have an experience with a bird when driving just a few weeks after my post about the thrush flying in front of my car, urging me to slow down (and avoiding a head-on collision as a result).

So let’s have a bit of a look at what hawk means, given you’ve chosen to move into Free Flight from the Free Fall of last week. That’s a big difference in energy between those two phrases. Flying freely is to be moving forwards with purpose, whereas falling freely is to simply be allowing gravity to do its work. So, you’ve turned an important corner, moving from the genuine “handing over” of self to the Divine Design to a state in which you are now taking action to walk your path and sing your song.

Here’s what “Hawk” means to me: having clear sight (being “hawk-eyed”), focusing on specific areas, being able to fly fast, to quickly change direction in mid-flight, having a certain, detached quality towards things (ie not being moved by everything) and being strong enough to grasp your food on the wing.

Being adaptable (changing direction in mid-flight) is one of the key elements for us all right now as we see big changes in the world: financially, climatically and emotionally too.

A hawk once flew right past me. I was getting out of my car and about to close the door when a small bird flew into the hedge that ran along our driveway. Right behind it was a large hawk. At the last moment the hawk realized it was not going to catch the smaller bird so it “hit the brakes”, flicking smoothly at a ninety-degree angle and flying between me and the hedge. It was no more than 18 inches from me as it passed by. For an instant I was looking into its eye. In that instant I felt the same feeling you and Dewitt are talking about in your last post: the moment of awe when we meet nature head on, when something wells up inside us like an irresistible wave, with joy, elation, wonder all wrapped up in equal measure.

The next moment the bird was gone, flashing past me and up and over the house so fast that I could barely believe it. It had held my gaze for less than a second, but I remember that feeling to this day.

Here are some other meanings of the word “hawk”:

As a verb, to hawk means to sell (particularly in a market place) and that seems appropriate to me, because you’re now moving into a time when you leave the day-job and start selling things in a new way. Selling gets a bad rap, but most of us have to do some when we run our own business. Hawking your own wares is to do so without fear, without inhibition.

So, one message might be to have full confidence in your talents and in the value of your service: to shout out loud to the world rather than being so quiet that no one hears you. Not that you have to be brash. There’s a big difference between confidence and arrogance and we’re both on the same page when it comes to being humble.

Another interesting meaning of the word hawk is that of a small board or tray on which mortar is mixed when building a house. I love this meaning for you, because mortar is what glues things together, helping a house stand for a long time, keeping it dry and weatherproof. It’s also the origin of the word mortar-board, the hats people wear when they graduate from college. So, Gaye, it seems you have graduated from one school of learning and are entering another!

I’ve saved the best for last…

You and I have a love of mythology and symbols. My course Natural Wealth delves into ways in which magic and metaphysics can be brought into daily life and it seems to me that you’ve been given a powerful message here that you are “on the right track” as the person responsible for gathering together the “online family” of people who are interested in applying the simple Laws that are the backbone of Natural Wealth.

Here’s why:

Let’s cast our minds back a few thousand years to the time of the pharaohs and one of the most well-known of all symbols: the Eye of Horus.

In Egyptian mythology Horus is the hawk-headed god who was born to Isis. He and she are often shown in statues in a way echoed much later by those of Mary with the baby Jesus. Like Jesus, Horus is the product of divine conception.

The Eye of Horus was a symbol for resurrection, power, protection and health! Perfect, given the topic of our last posts.

The Right Eye was the one usually shown (which indicates the masculine side, the more logical) in old iconography. This represented many things, but high amongst the list was the meaning of “one who does”: someone who takes action. To the Egyptians the eye was active, not passive. The Right Eye also symbolized Ra, god of the Sun.

The Left Eye was representative of the Moon, the feminine and more intuitive side of human nature. This eye also represented Thoth, the god credited with being the first “master architect”, the one who brought learning and understanding to the world. Again, perfect for you just now.

In Natural Wealth I have tried to balance methods applicable to both male and female readers, appealing to both the intuitive and the logical parts of the brain. Balance to me is the most important key to success, because it is in the balancing of our masculine and feminine sides that we become most effective (in business, in health, in love and in expressing ourselves). That balance extends to an acceptance of the spiritual, divine or super-natural as a part of every day life.

The Eye of Horus itself contained many hidden numerological and geometrical meanings, but perhaps the most important of these is that it stood for the number 1, which is the number of beginnings and of self-knowledge.

Another fun resonance is that there were originally 7 different hieroglyphs that represented the eye – nicely corresponding with the 7 elements of health we talked about last week!

I could expand here, but we are entering a field that stretches past the horizon of a single post, so I’ll leave you with the thought that the Eye of Horus also represented a goddess called Wadjet whose name derives from the Egyptian word “wadj” which means “green” (we see this today in the word wadi, a green oasis in the desert sands).

Green is the central colour of the seven chakras, the middle pillar. It is located in the heart, which is where you felt your huge welling of emotion as the hawk flew by. The heart is the centre of all creation (our thoughts coming only as a result of what we feel, not the other way round) and the Eye of Horus includes the teardrop image within it: an image for the heart’s compassion within strength. Green, of course, stands for growth and vitality too…

This is where you say to me, “Hey Richard, all this is contained in one moment as I drove back from working-out?” and I say “Absolutely! All this and more is contained in each and every moment. The lessons are always there, flooding to us thick and fast. And our amazing hearts and minds process all of this every second, each day!”

The trick is to listen, to take note and then take action. So, today’s affirmation might be “I never miss a trick!”

With that I’ll leave you to enjoy your last day of “work”!

Next week we can come back to some of the specific questions about health that you asked.

Love and best wishes,
Richard.

Written on July 1st, a New Moon and partial eclipse…and the beginning of Gaye’s Great Adventure!

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Free Flight

“There are times when wind is howling
 and the ocean is roaring so loud  
you can’t hear your own cries of delight.
When layer upon layer of beauty press on you with such force
that you barely have the courage to press the shutter.
                                                        – Dewitt Jones

This may seem like a strange response to your last post Richard, but Dewitt, who is a world-renowned photographer, has touched me with the beauty and depth of his photography and words so many, many times.  This just so happened to be the e-mail photo and words of the day.  I received it after the event I speak of below.

As I was driving home, just moments ago, from a great weight training and swim workout with music loud enough to make my body want to move some more, a very large hawk flew directly across my windshield in perfect timing for me to feel the free flight energy (versus the free fall!) and for her to give me the indisputable message – fly free as you become “gainfully unemployed”!

As Dewitt’s quote above reflects I was in absolute awe of this creature of nature and her message to me.  I did cry out in delight, and it was challenging to hold all of the energy that flowed in within that particular moment in time.

Nature often brings us messages.  In fact I would say it constantly brings us messages if we will open our eyes, ears, and heart to receive them.  I was blessed to have received such a powerful message today as I start my very last week in a conventional job.  (last day on 7/1!)

As nature brings us daily messages so does our body.  Your 7 simple suggestions for health are a great reminder! You are correct in that I do all of them, but occasionally forget when I most need to remember!  Just the simple return to increased water intake resolved much of my “crash and burn” syndrome at the end of the 10-hour work day.

That is not to say that this work environment is good for me over all, but at least I am able to finish out the last few days with simple gratitude for the energy I do possess.  This is the life energy that will now go into creative livelihood, and I suspect it will skyrocket!

When we are doing what we love, and what “turns us on” I have learned that our bodies respond with increased energy and vital health.  However, there are times when there is an imbalance present and we fall prey to some malady – hopefully minor like a headache or cold.   Are there messages here as well?

So here I am drinking more water, and my attention is on “free flight” with the ability to touch down or change direction at any time I so desire.  The “free fall” was perhaps more about letting go of control and served its purpose.  Now at this point in the journey it feels good to see the texture, patterns, and lay of the land so to speak from a bird’s eye view, and have curiosity and my heart lead the way for the next stages of this journey.

Thank you for your presence in my life!

Always Love,

Gaye

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Seventh-Heaven Health!

Dear Gaye,

Yes, really important to keep energy levels up at this time. Here are seven simple suggestions. You are probably doing most of these already, but I thought to mention them anyway.

**Keep your water consumption high. Dehydration is such a common cause of the body feeling out-of-whack in some way. Bear in mind that we’re all 70% (or more) water, so it makes sense to feed the body this way. Water is conductive. Plenty of water helps your circuitry to operate at optimum levels and to keep your immune system in good working order, flushing out toxins as you go. It is also beneficial metaphorically as you go through big changes. Water is non-resistant (you can run your fingers through it), has great power (it can wash away mountains over time) and is the life-bringer to every plant and animal on the planet. Drinking plenty will help you to be adaptable, to be strong and to grow healthily as you take “the leap into faith”. It’s an often-overlooked nurturer, so keep an eye on how much you are drinking and if you feel hungry late at night, have a glass of water rather than a midnight chocolate bar!

**Keep your protein intake high. Very important right now as you are burning up a lot of energy (mental and physical) leaving the old patterns behind, finding a new home, creating new income streams etc. I’ll be interested to know what blood-type you are as this can help when deciding on which proteins to choose. As a rule, whey and eggs are the most efficient-absorbed and converted sources of protein for pretty much all of us, but let’s revisit this in a future post.

**Keep your oil intake high. This is another really important, but often overlooked area of optimum health. Oils are such a crucial part of keeping you balanced. The brain loves you when you feed it with good essential oils and repays you with clarity and energy. Think of your mind as an engine. It works best when you keep it lubricated, just like the engine of your car which purrs gratefully when you fill it with new oil. The body is much the same. I find that many clients who are low on energy, confused or not thinking clearly, benefit from adding quantities of good oils to their diet. What kind depends on you, but as a rule fish, flax or linseed work well. Olive oil (extra virgin) on salads. The same when cooking (or coconut oil, which is a great cleanser too).

**Cut down on refined sugars, or cut them out altogether. Refined sugars leech calcium from your bones and weaken the immune system. Whilst they give you the “quick fix” of a sudden blood-sugar-rush, they leave you depleted in the medium-long term, meaning you’ll vacillate from “up” to “down” more quickly. This can contribute to sudden mood-swings, which are not beneficial at any time, especially so right now. Cutting out refined sugars is not as easy as it sounds. They are in so many products these days. But even if you do it in stages, it is worth the effort!

**Eat little and often. This is the most natural way to go with food. I was brought up on the “three meals per day” routine at school, with meals served at a particular time. This often results in us eating too much in one sitting, because we’re “ravenous” by the time we get to eat. Eating too much in one go leads to two things: sluggishness and weight gain. The rule of thumb here is to eat no more than the amount that would fit into your hand when you scrunch it into a fist. That’s the approximate size of the stomach for each of us (in your case, your fist is smaller than mine, which means your stomach is too!). Only when we eat more than that at any one sitting does our stomach expand, leading to weight gain. We actually operate best when we eat smaller amounts (never quite filling the stomach) regularly. This keeps a steady flow of nutrients passing through our bodies, again avoiding the “up and down” swings that eating less often create.

**Cut down on carbs, especially wheat-based products. A lot of people “load up” with carbohydrates in order to feel full, but if you’re eating good, fresh, organic produce you’ll find you are much more satisfied than if you major on a heavily carb-oriented diet.

**Cut down your dairy intake. Few westerners are geared to high dairy intake and a lot are in fact allergic to some degree. It’s also a coagulant, helping to block up sinuses for many people. One of your focuses is how to aid the breath. Step number one, for me, would be to cut out all cream-rich products. And for those who say “but what about calcium?” there are plenty of alternative sources. More on this another time.

As an overall rule, the best advice I ever had was from a nutritionist friend of mine who says simply: “If God didn’t create it, don’t eat it!” That just about sums it up!

There’s plenty more to revisit here, but one last thought popped into my mind. You have used the term “free-fall” quite a lot in recent posts and emails to me. I wonder if that image is really the best for you just now? Falling is a negative word for most of us. We talk of stock markets falling, people falling flat on their faces, falling out of favor etc as a bad thing. (One of the phrases I’d like to change is the idea that we “fall” in love. How about standing tall in love instead?)

In the natural world things fall when they are losing energy or die. Trees fall when the life force has left them. Leaves fall in the autumn, when life withdraws until the following spring. It’s not actually a negative, it’s part of the natural cycle of birth, growth, death and rebirth…but we tend to see it as a negative, which is important here. In contrast, things that rise are seen as strong, full of vigor.

As you know, words are really important. They resonate around us, creating life as we move through them. Perhaps you can come up with a new expression for your current “leap”? Instead of free-falling, what about “jump-starting” or “free-leaping”? Have a think and when you find something that resonates for you, substitute it for “free-fall” each time you are tempted to use that phrase!

Be healthy!

Best wishes,
Richard.

www.richardcawte.com

The Most Important Wealth of All!

Dear Richard –

As I have been free falling in this particular life passage of mine there has been a constant theme arising.  Nothing can move forward – or backwards, sideways, up and down, diagonal or any other way – unless my body is functioning optimally.

Your beautiful post on compassion brought to mind self-compassion.  Enhancing and paying attention to health of body, mind, heart and Spirit is certainly on the top of my list in this realm!

Finishing out these last days of the “job” I recognize what a toll it has taken on my health – even though I am overall quite healthy.   At the end of each 10-hour work day  I am completely drained of life energy, my enthusiasm has ebbed to a dangerously low level, and I certainly don’t want to be around any people.

In other words my tank is on empty!

Over a long period of time I have recognized that this can take an immense toll on health and well being.  Part of the many reasons to take the particular leap I am taking from “small-box” job with benefits to a “no-box” creative livelihood that brings joy and great satisfaction, is my health.

Annie Dillard, a great writer once said:

How we spend our days is

of course

how we spend our lives.

Exactly how do we want to spend our days and what elements that contribute towards our vibrant health do we want to pay attention to?

This is the discussion I would like to have with you now Richard, for you know the old adage:  Your health is your wealth!

….and I would expand this to say that our individual and collective health, and our planets health, are directly and intimately connected.  The most important wealth of all!!

“The first wealth is health.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Love

Gaye

Dragonfly Message

Dear Gaye,

Yes, as the leap gets closer and closer, those fingers are likely to reach ever-more-frequently for the dark chocolate. And that’s just fine. Enjoying the taste of life (in all its forms) is a blessing.  I guess the trick is to find what you are looking for in the chocolate (the comfort and reassurance) inside you as you go through this huge shift.

We can talk another time about synchronicities and coincidences (the latter, by the way, are literally just that: co-incidents). These happen more and more when you go with the flow, or “follow the weft” as I call it. For today, however, I’d like to bring an image that may help you to be non-resistant through the coming weeks. It’s not a new image (are there any?) but it seems appropriate for you just now.

Think of yourself as a dragonfly. Dragonflies spend two years in larval state, immersed in a lifestyle very different to the one for which they are destined. Beneath the surface of a pond they swim about, hunting for food, surrounded by sub-aquatic life forms. We cannot know how happy or otherwise they are in this state. All we know for sure is that they just “get on with it”.

Then a day dawns when something happens to thrust them into a totally new way of doing things. Instinct prompts them to crawl up the nearest stem. Without questioning why, they inch their way higher and higher up that stem, travelling much further than they ever have before. A few moments later, they emerge through the surface of the pond into a new environment. Suddenly they are surrounded by air instead of liquid. Unperturbed, they sit quietly, waiting: trusting in the outcome.

As the sun rises in the sky the dragonfly larva is warmed by its rays. And now it undergoes a remarkable transformation. The old husk or outer skin falls away and from it emerges the scintillating long-winged creature, sparkling with greens, blues, reds and golds that we are all familiar with. Is there pain involved in this process? Perhaps. Sloughing off its familiar skin must be at very least unusual. It’s the first time anything like this has happened.

For a few minutes the newly formed dragonfly continues to cling to the stem, the umbilical cord linking it to its old life beneath water. It is not yet ready to take flight. During these minutes its body quivers, its wings (the vehicles of transport that it will now use) vibrating with energy. When it is ready, it launches itself off the stem, flying up and out into a life lived in an entirely new environment.

Think of that tiny creature for a moment. Up until that time it has had no notion of the “world above”. It has been satisfied to dwell beneath the surface of the pond, bound by the parameters of sub-aquatic life. Does it have an inkling that a different life is in store for it? We can’t know that for sure. But what we do know is that it does not resist the transformation that lies in wait. It follows the calling of its instincts without hesitation. It trusts in the outcome, even though it cannot comprehend the full extent of the changes it is about to experience.

Much the same happens to us when we are born. Each and every human on the planet was once familiar with a life surrounded by liquid. Yet each of us emerges from life in the womb to suck in great gasps of air, eschewing the umbilical cord that has supported us for the past nine months as we transform ourselves into beings that walk, talk and eat in a whole new way.  Yes, birth is a challenge: but we do it anyway, because it is the only way we can live the life that is destined for us at our conception.

Right now, you are undergoing a birth of sorts. You are casting off the umbilical cord (the support system of a “regular job”) just as surely as you did when you emerged from your mother’s womb. You are being drawn irresistibly up the stem into a new world, like the dragonfly in our image.

I would say that right now you are at the stage where you are still heading up the stem, immersed in the liquid of the old way of life. Keep going. The journey to the surface is not so long and it is worth the effort. For the result will be that you are able to dovetail creating income with health, love and perfect self-expression: all of which are essential ingredients of Natural Wealth.

A final thought for you:

It is as the fully formed creature that flies in air that the dragonfly expresses itself most completely, its iridescent colours shining brightly in the morning sun, its flight sure and definite. It is in its new life above water that it meets other dragonflies, one of which it will mate with in order to create the next generation of dragonflies, all of whom will spend most of their time beneath water, but are all of whom are destined to rise into the air in much the same way as humans are.

Trust in the message of the dragonfly, Gaye. It is a message of non-resistance. Relax and enjoy the process (and eat as much chocolate as you like!). When you relax and smile you are showing yourself and others that you do not resist the changes you are going through. And that makes you a magnet for all that is good in life, because when you no longer resist life’s challenges you become truly irresistible!

To put it another way, bear in mind the old proverb: “A man who cannot smile should not open a shop!”

Until next time, much love,
Richard.

www.richardcawte.com

Free Fall – Will The Parachute Open?

The next question could be  – Is there a parachute at all?!  I have never jumped from an airplane, but the present journey that I am on feels like I have, and I am not quite certain that I have put on a parachute – or even more, if I even need one!

Talking to some friends last week on one of those rare sunny days in Portland, Oregon we decided that there are many possibilities here.  Yes, there may be a parachute, or maybe one isn’t even needed, for perhaps there is nothing to fall or crash into. Maybe we sprout wings on the way down….or maybe we aren’t falling down, but moving sideways or up for that matter!

Life may just be a continuous free fall and we either enjoy the ride, or panic and attempt to stop our fall by forgetting to trust.  Just maybe the fall itself is the journey and all we have to do is become one with it.  Well, I am not certain yet what it is, but life is teaching me a thing or two these days.

Lofty words indeed for I have to admit that I have not perfected the free fall just yet – though I am staying as conscious as possible during the faster parts!  When I reach for that dark chocolate one too many times with 16 days left until I am “unemployed”, I know that there is a little bit of anxiety going on.  Now there is nothing wrong with dark chocolate – oh how I love it – but there is a place in me that yearns to be reassured that everything is going to be OK…..and for the few moments of delicious surrender I know that everything is as it should be.  What I want is to know that place inside of me all the time….with or without the chocolate!

Richard talked about two things in his last post that are recurrent themes for me on this path to natural wealth.  The first is resistance and the second synchronicity.  I have found that they both can be great teachers, just in different ways.   A couple of years ago now I wrote a chapter in a book called “Resistance Is Futile, and A Doorway To Freedom” (Conscious Entrepreneurs, Edited by Christine Kloser) .  During this time I kept being presented with opportunities to feed my resistance (fear/scarcity), or to step into it and see what was behind the good old resistance door # 1.

The funny thing is that I find stepping through the resistance doorway always leads to a fall into the realm of possibility, opportunity, and new awareness.  Now if you are visual here you can imagine what that might look like!  Alice falling down the rabbit hole??

This of course is part of Natural Wealth.  That good old saying, “what you resist, persists” means to me that someone is using a whole lot of energy holding back from an experience, person, or feeling when instead they can choose to either engage or to walk away.   That is – take action instead of staying stuck!

My example in the chapter was a many years resistance to a style of yoga that I thought was not yoga at all but a workout, and boring in its repetition at that.  Of course I was constantly being faced to engage with it when my yoga students would ask me whether I had any opinion about  this style of yoga.

What I found as I said yes to this practice (instead of judging what I had never personally experienced), and stepped into the 100 degree room that first time, is that when it comes right down to it the melting (literally!) of resistance was a step into freedom.

My energy was not tied up in resisting, I learned that there were parts of the practice that I benefited from immensely,  and I was learning that surrender in the moment was much more enlightening and leads to freedom of choice.  Once I was more open synchronicity started to play out in my life much more than usual.  In fact I was invited to teach a class on breathing at this very same yoga studio which expanded the practice for everyone.

Let’s just say that resistance cannot be a part of my present journey at all, and because of that synchronicity (not a result of cause and effect) is playing out in a big way!  Part of wealth is to pay attention to the constant flow in and out of our lives of signs, signals, symbols and synchronicity.   Letting go of the resistance not only seems to enhance the frequency of synchronicity, but it sharpens our senses of perception.

Some people dismiss synchronicity as coincidence, but I see and feel it as grace and a definite sign post on the path to Natural Wealth.  Not a day passes that I don’t see, feel and experience synchronicity. It is difficult to single out just one incident,  but here is an example.

Out of the blue a man that I had know briefly when I was in a yoga ashram 7 years ago, found me on Facebook and asked to “be my friend”.  I recognized who it was and of course said yes which gave him access to e-mail me.

This man has, for the past few years, been a global traveler and currently is living in Columbia, South America.   As we shared life journeys he found that I was to take a leap to a new home and was quitting my job. He thought that I might want to be in touch with a few other people that were at the ashram at the same time as I was, so he alerted a couple of them.

Very soon I heard from a woman whom I had also know at the ashram saying that she lived in Tecate, Mexico now and was teaching yoga at a resort.  If I was ever down that way she would love to see me.

As it turns out my trip towards my new home has a stop in San Diego (my home town) and the resort she works at is only a short distance from there across the border.  I have been invited to have a free overnight at the resort which is only a couple of days after my birthday.  Synchronicity or coincidence?

So here is an idea:  How about a Free Fall Into The Resistance??

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Courageous or Crazy? Painting Outside of The Lines

A human being is a part of a whole, called by us “universe”, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest… a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.”Albert Einstein

I start with this beautiful and insightful quote by Einstein as I believe that when we choose to walk upon what Richard and I call the path of Natural Wealth we must keep opening to “widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty”.

I find that as we do this we can no longer accept separation from the whole, but instead must embody the wealth of the life that we have been given,  constantly learning that as we are courageous – or crazy as some people will judge – this widens our experience of the life we have been given.

I am finding that part of being courageous is to “demand definite leads” as Richard stated in his last post, and then actively follow them!  Playing a passive role in a life changing self-created shift just doesn’t seem to work. However,  I have to confess that the word “demand” did make me uncomfortable as it energetically made me picture a willful child demanding that they get their way.  Unyielding! …yet this journey “demands” that at times we must yield, or let go into following the leads as they appear at our doorstep.

So given all of that…the word that I have chosen for myself is “declaring” that definite leads are coming my way – and they are!.  A matter of semantics perhaps…..but finding the right fit, being aware of how it feels inside, and seeing what it ignites on my particular path of Natural Wealth is important….. and a confirmation of what you Richard have spoken on about the importance of feelings!

Feelings produce a deeper knowledge that runs within the cells without the resistance of logic.  That knowledge brings certainty, calmness, assurance.  It is the candle that lights your way to Natural Wealth and your Faith and Trust are the hands cupped around it, ensuring that the flame never blows out.”

Follow Every Lead” is also something that I would add to this discussion.  Our minds would have us judge many of the “nudges”, or leads, that come our way each day  as not important, not acceptable to follow,  “impossible”, or they get overlooked all together.  I am here to say – follow every one!…and trust that your feelings/heart will tell you when you should let go or turn in another direction.  I would go so far as to say definitely follow those leads that seem rather crazy to you or that you have never even considered.  They often are the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow! (more stories in future posts!)

As I was slogging through the cleaning and packing up of my little cottage this past weekend in preparation for my move to a friend’s home for the next 5 weeks before the launch to Austin,  I found myself doubting my sanity in moments.  This move out would mark yet another step forward with all indications that there was “no turning back!”  Was I really doing the “right” thing?

Just as I was in the midst of those feelings a very large bird appeared outside of my sliding glass door soaring in the air completely free and at liberty to go wherever he/she wanted to go.   As Richard’s bird saved him from a head on collision with a lorry, my bird reminded me of my hearts strong message that I definitely am on the right path and I am actually free in this very moment….and all of the moments to follow.  It is a matter of perception, and willingness to keep listening to the hearts constant guidance.

And the “craziness” continues……A month or more ago I declared that I was moving to Austin and moving out of my current home before the actual relocation. A week ago I gave notice at my current nursing job that my last day would be 7/1/11.

As I take each step I am making it an intriguing practice to listen to what other people comment about my particular journey.  Most of these comments or questions have to do with quitting a “secure job with benefits”, moving to a new location where I have not secured a “job”, not having a “secured” home to live in once I arrive there,  or the reason for the relocation must have to be a man, family or friends.    Note worthy is the word “secure” whether it be stated outright or merely inferred.

The most common comment made to me is that I am very brave…or maybe I am just crazy!  I can actually see/feel these people quacking in their boots so to speak at the mere thought of this free fall of trust!  Our culture has brain washed us well.  The next comment that people make is “I would be too scared to do what you are doing”.   So I ask you, am I courageous or am I simply crazy??

My answer to this, if you would like to know, is that I am both – and proud to claim the last one!  Living our lives inside of the lines of accepted cultural thought and roles is acceptable.  Given this, if one colors outside of the lines – then you must be crazy!

What if crazy means living in possibility and trust.  Not having to pin down anything because you have opened to your whole being (some would say God here) and aligned with possibility and opportunity.   Being and embodying the magnificent being that you are, loving and living fiercely within that sacred space of your life.

In parting I say,  join me as I get out the paints, allow the heart to guide the way, and definitely paint outside of the lines that have been drawn around a carefully self-contained life.  “…… “It is the candle that lights your way to Natural Wealth and your Faith and Trust are the hands cupped around it, ensuring that the flame never blows out.”

It may be messy….but oh what fun!!

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