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Surrendering to Emergence

Dear Richard,

Emerging is a theme that is happening constantly all around us.  Whether it is transforming within embodied form or  passing on to become part of the vibration and energy that is a part of all change.  Everything is interacting with everything else and co-creation emerges.

Your last post Richard points the way to this within and without of the emergence that is constantly present.  This unseen rhythm is felt, and somehow is becoming more real to many of us as we remember the deep interconnection that orients all of life.

It is just this that I want to give a personal example of from last night.    Let’s just say that events of the last few days have conspired to test my awareness and my willingness to be out of balance.  Black and white anxiety based thinking, and ego driven control resulted in what I call a “crash and burn” syndrome tipping me way off center.

It is not important what the “crash and burn” details are, but more relevant are the ways in which I was informed that being out of balance had some definite rewards and rich territory within to explore.  Releasing attachment to being “in” balance brought me back  “in balance” if you can believe that!  It also brought experiences  that will serve well the next time a tidal wave comes into my life!  And there will be those times for all of us.

What I couldn’t see, feel or even conceptualize was right there within the territory of imbalance.  After a few days of dwelling in this place of imbalance an event happened that took me so far into an emotional outpouring that my black and white thinking and presupposed conception of what next steps to take were shattered.  Other possibilities then emerged…and I surrendered.

Last night was the second night in my new home sanctuary here in Austin, Texas.  There is quite a bit of space as no furniture or other niceties of home have been placed or chosen yet.  Now I could be in a hurry to get this remedied (black and white thinking) or I could surrender to the feeling of spaciousness and light coming into and out of this dwelling surrounded by trees and green space.

I chose the latter – and nature contrived to send me numerous messages within my dream and awakened sleep time.  There was a visitation.  Right about now you may be thinking that I am certainly crazy, but I do believe that it isn’t until we remove ourselves from a rigid cultural and past experience controlled perception of how and when we should think and act that we can truly open into our lives.

I was visited by what I call the Spirit of the Breath….and the force and flow of the rain.  Deep in the wee hours of the night my entire being was aware of “being breathed”.  There was absolutely no effort involved and the freedom and sensual feeling was way beyond what I experience in my day-to-day life.  All breathing spaces within my body were expanding softly, fully, powerfully and with grace and absolute ease.

The pleasure and ease of being breathed is what I believe we innately are coming to as the global shift speeds up.  As we individually and mutually agree to move into and out of balance deep trust will emerge that we will find our way.

Our breath moves out of shallow, holding and contracted states in order for the Earth and all life to heal.  We are living in and connected to a breathing Earth and are a direct reflection of what is going on throughout the cosmos. We are the Earth.

Woken up from within this deep breathing state the rain came next pouring through my open sliding door reminding me to come back home to flow.  Informed by this water element, of which we are a major part, that there is a way around obstructions by surrendering to the pathway that is always to be found.  Going out of our way at times…… trusting that the larger Source always calls us home.

Natures messages and the rhythm of my own breath remain signposts along the way as a reminder to come home to the possibilities imbedded in each moment.  Are we waking up and collaboratively emerging? Or are we demanding control, in denial,  or running away?  I trust that I am part of the first group.  How about you??

With Love,




Removing The Walls of Doubt

Dear Gaye,

Yes, absolutely: putting your hands in the air and laughing will help you deconstruct those walls of doubt!

The secret is to know that the walls do not exist.

Those walls are the product of your mind as it looks around and says: “Hang on, Gaye, you’re doing things differently here and I’m uncomfortable with that. Where’s your secure job, your pay packet, your routine?” As the mind looks around at this unfamiliar territory, it begins to clamor more and more loudly for you to return to the “old ways” and does its best to convince you that safety lies in the methods of the past.

Those walls, as you say, are the product of your own fear and doubt. Keep in mind that you have put them up, because that means you can knock ‘em down in no time!

The best way I know of to knock down those walls is to take actions that affirm your faith. Don’t do things just with hope. Hope is not enough. Hope allows for delay. Take action based on faith in something that has not happened yet. That’s the way to bring it right into the present.

For instance:

I had a client once whose Walls of Doubt had been stopping her from doing what she loved for thirty years or more. When I told her what was happening and asked her to focus her attention on those aspects of life that created joy and laughter inside her, she said: “But Richard, I am one of the most positive people I know. I say affirmations each morning and have a list of my dreams stuck to the fridge door. I look with hope at any situation and yet I’m no nearer to achieving my goals.”

“Well,” I replied, “there is your problem. You are looking with hope only. If you are always hopeful, you will never achieve the realizations you desire. Hope is too wishy washy. It allows for delay. There is nothing wishy washy about the Divine Design. Be faithful instead. Prove to yourself that you know that your dreams are not just on their way, but are ALREADY HERE!”

Her biggest dream was to go traveling around the world. I suggested that instead of simply writing this on a piece of paper and sticking it on the fridge door, she go out and do something about it. “Prove to yourself that you know it is already happening (bearing in mind that in Divine Mind there is no such thing as time). Go out and buy something that represents your journey. Treat your mind like a child. Show it that you have no doubt, no fear, no distrust.”

She went out and bought a rucksack and some walking boots. Each morning she would do her usual affirmations, get out of bed and then slip on her rucksack. Taking a few paces around her room she imagined the view of a mountain, the smell of the sea, swathes of colorful spices hanging in the Indian markets she wished to travel to. One morning she emailed me to say: “I could almost smell the rich smells of the spices this morning!” I told her to be ready for her journey. “It is happening very soon,” I said. “Your dreams are catching up with you!”

Not long after that she received an unexpected legacy and was able to take a year or more away from work and her dream travels took place.

The subconscious mind is so amazingly powerful that we are only just beginning to tap into its resources. But it is like fire, or electricity. If we allow it free rein it can be damaging (even to ourselves). So we must learn to control it, to tend to it, nurture it.

Look at it like putty. Whatever actions you take throughout the day make an impression on it. Thoughts make only light indentations. Actions make deep and lasting ones because they create feelings inside you. Taking action, therefore, is the best way to make an impression on your subconscious mind. By taking action you literally impress yourself!

It’s an ongoing process, because those Walls of Doubt are thrown up for most of us each and every day (especially at the moment with all the uncertainties that we see in the financial world). That’s why I always say: “Practice! Practice! And then Practice some more!” The more we practice anything, the better we get at it. The more often that we demonstrate to ourselves that those walls crumble and fade when we act in total faith, the easier it becomes to do that the next time one pops up!

So, Gaye, find something that you can do to show your subconscious mind that you trust in the Divine Design. Take action, now, today.  Do something to prove you have faith rather than hope.

Remember, we combine with the things we pay attention to, so it’s up to us to keep our attention on the things we love. That way the Walls of Doubt simply disappear. So, go have fun. Impress yourself!

The seemingly-impossible happens every day…

With much love,

The Wall That Is Not There

Dear Richard –

Sitting here with my cuppa Earl Grey tea I find myself reflecting on a very powerful dream that I had several years ago.  I call it powerful because it is still very clear to this day, and in fact is quite relevant right now as I find myself feeling that I am “up against a wall” and there is no room to see what is beyond it.

First my dream.  This dream came at a time when I was struggling to “find my way” to what in life would bring me joy and fulfillment.  I was traveling on a path to a place of “higher learning” and was one of many in a line walking along a dirt path through forest.

All of a sudden the path ended and a clearing was before us, but also a ledge with a steep cliff side below.  All of my attention was drawn to this quite treacherous abyss and as I looked over it I saw others attempting to climb or rappel down the cliff using all kinds of gear.  There was also a very narrow rock path that serpentined it’s way down, but as I watched these people they seemed to be struggling as well.

Now my decision had to be made as to how I was going to get down there in order to get to my destination.  I stood there and closed my eyes and asked for guidance.  As I did that a very low whisper coming from the vicinity of my heart said, “Look to your left”.

My eyes opened and I looked to my left (my feminine side).  There was a path that had appeared – or it was there all along, but I hadn’t been expanding  my vision into possibility.  As I traced the path with my eyes to my surprise I saw the “place of higher learning” was not far on this easy downward slopping road.  No struggle was necessary.  Simply a stroll to my “destination” – to awareness.

This dream sticks with me because it continues to provide the very clear guidance that I need when I seem to be stuck – up against a wall that feels immovable!

Whether cliff or wall they both represent to me the illusion that something is preventing me from moving forward.  That “something” certainly requires a lot of struggle, effort, and risk taking as well.  Something I need to conquer or dismantle in order to get past it or to the other side.

This “wall” for me right now is the seeming lack of not having streams of income flowing in to support me while I am busy in the creations stages.   I have to admit that my mind took me on one of those very scary roller coaster rides over the last couple of days, and the emotions that go with that were certainly felt as I looked at my bank balance!  I even caught myself thinking about applying for jobs!  But the difference this time around was that I could witness what my mind was doing and begin to detach from the feeling of “no room to move”.

When I found myself working with the texture, thickness, and architecture of this wall that I seemed to be pushing against it hit me that I needed to stop pushing….because there was no wall at all.  No wall blocking me from the unlimited resources and creative ideas that are there for me as close as my next breath.  It was only a construct of fear and scarcity.  It was only an illusion.  It was only that I had fallen out of trust.

Now I have decided that if my mind tries this little trick again I will simply put my hands up in the air on that roller coaster ride and laugh all the way down.  Do you think that will deconstruct the illusions??

With Love,



Chaotic Wholeness: Handing Over My Life

“There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.~Albert Einstein

Dear Richard –

Something very powerful has settled within me.  It is actually astounding…and feels as if I have “come home” in the most profound way.  This is a home within that I know, dwelled in sporadically over the years,  yet couldn’t seem to stay in.

For you the reader, let me just say that this “home sanctuary” inside brings me heightened pleasure in all that I do and a sense of deep belonging – not necessarily to the world that we can all see, but instead to something much larger that cannot be explained in words.  It is that interconnection that you Richard speak of.

How did this happen?  I understand in a more embodied way now that this chaotic wholeness that you speak of Richard resonates within me and all living things in the cosmos.  I understand that there is an order present within the seeming disorder….inside and outside of me.  Yet, I did not trust this order.  Instead, for most of my life, I felt that I must control things in life to stay “safe” and “secure” – a belief/thought systems approach to guaranteeing that I would never feel fully free.

I too know deep within my cells that everything is interconnected.  This interconnection and attraction is happening in every moment.  Now I feel it!  It is not just mind talk….it is heart whispering!  What happened to nudge me where I am now staying within myself??

Since I can make up any story I want (and mind you I am aware it is only a story)  here goes.  I have literally handed over my life to inner guidance, outward signs and messages, and following wherever my heart takes me. Along with that goes complete and absolute TRUST.  Not just some of the time, but all of the time.

Oh, yes I catch my mind cooking up schemes to take me into fear, lack, or anxiety, but thankfully I must have passed some sort of God/Spirit/Creator test because it amazingly doesn’t stick.  My mind is turning back flips trying to get my attention…but baby I am not buying the old beliefs being paraded out in new clothes and razzle dazzle in an attempt to disguise the true agenda here – to keep me stuck, in doubt, anxiety ridden, fear based, and in a carefully constructed box for safe keeping.

Could it be as simple as that I ask?  Well if you were living my life right now you would have to take notice.  The amount of synchronicity that happens on a daily basis – that I now notice mind you – is amazing!  For just one small example I will tell you a little story:

10 days ago now I decided to take a little early evening walk in the condo complex that I am living in, temporarily housed by a very generous and gracious friend by the name of Judy.  On that walk the first thing that I realized was that it was not only peaceful and quiet where I was staying, but the entire complex was like that (right in the middle of Central Austin!).

Not only that, but the mature trees everywhere, the landscaping, creeks and green space that surround the entire complex, friendly diverse residents,  and the natural beauty left me walking back home with a smile on my face and happiness within.  I felt blessed to simply live here for a while until I found a place of my own.

Then it happened.  That small whisper of guidance telling me to imagine that I did have a place of my own here….a home sanctuary where I could do my creative work and feel at peace within a community…and very close to everything that I frequent.  In fact not more than 10 minutes from organic food, yoga studio, spring fed lap pool, live music, culture, walking paths around the lake…well, you get the picture.

It should be noted that before I moved here I had been looking at lease listings near the downtown area and had set my sights on being right in the middle of everything.  Once here, I realized that perhaps that “must” should dissolve into “let’s see what unfolds itself”.  It was from that place of handing over that I took that walk.

The heart direction was obviously telling me to imagine myself living in the complex, but I took it one step further from leasing.  I expanded that vision to buying something in the complex (even though my current financial status would not indicate that was possible at all!)  It felt like the Divine Design that Richard speaks of was taking me down a path of discovery here.

When I returned back to the condo that I am currently staying at I spoke to Judy about how I felt about the complex on my walk and that I would like to consider leasing, or even buying a unit here.  She was thrilled and, of course, had a Home Owners Association newsletter right next to her and showed me the addresses of the units for rent and those to buy.  She suggested that perhaps I should contact my real estate agent and have her show me some properties that were for sale, and also call the owner of the one for lease.

I dutifully kept following through by my hearts GPS and e-mailed my real estate contact.  The owner for the unit for rent did not answer his phone, and there was surprisingly no message machine.  Going to bed imaging that I was living here in my own home sanctuary, I woke up in the morning to find a note on the refrigerator from Judy.  It said, “please include me in looking at the Hemingway property (one of the few single story units here) because I may buy it”!  Needless to say I laughed out loud.  Perhaps it wasn’t right timing for me to buy…but someone else was going to buy it and lease it to me!

Without getting any lengthier in this story I will just say that I have held the possibility of  living in this complex within me.  We did go see the Hemingway property, and a couple of others.  Within 3 days of my declaring that I was happily living here, Judy put an offer down on the single story 3- bedroom/2 bath  unit opening onto a green space with beautiful trees, and the sellers accepted it which was $11,000 less that what they had been asking for.

Judy gets here investment property, I receive a home sanctuary, and I am still smiling at the miracle that unfolded right before my eyes!  Listen to the heart directed inner guidance, take action from that guidance….and then hand it over.  It may not go exactly as you envisioned it to, but it will always be the right thing to happen for your highest good.

My mantra for each dayGuide me.  Protect me.  I will follow through from your guidance leading with my heart.  Thank you for your guidance that you give to me.  I am always open to receive more and more.  I surrender with courage, trust, faith, passion, and  arms open wide.

Would you like to live your life as if everything is a miracle?  Thanks Richard!

P.S.  Judy just told me she was able to lock in an interest rate at the low end which just changed today due to the economic climate here in the U.S.  I had written down that she would get an interest rate at 5% or less.  It was less: 4.75%!


Making The Almost-Certain Certain

“What is it about the human mind that seeks ahead of the moment…and completely ignores what is present right now, while not trusting that all is unfolding itself just as it should?

“What is it that has us ignoring the incredible beauty before us which points to our natural wealth that is almost certainly renewing itself in many and various forms in our every moment?” G.A.

Dear Gaye,

Those words are from your latest post. I’m going to pick you up on a single phrase here, because it points to the difference between total faith and adopted belief. And the difference between the two makes all the difference!

Firstly, though, I congratulate you on admitting your fear. Most of us feel some kind of fear at some point during the day. Admitting it is the first step to addressing it. The next step is to overlay the fear with a behavior based on faith, because when you do this you make an imprint on your subconscious mind, rewiring those neural networks in the fastest way possible. Think of your subconscious as a pot of putty. When you act from faith, in the face of fear, you make an impression in that putty – you literally “impress yourself” by doing things in a new way.

So how do you do that?

Begin by choosing your words really carefully, especially when you put them in writing. Words are your outward demonstration of your inner frequency. They’ll determine which radio-station you tune in to each and every moment of the day. So, begin to choose them with that in mind. Which radio station do you wish to hear?

The bit of the sentence above that I’m most interested in is where you say that “natural wealth is almost certainly renewing itself in many and various forms.” Stop a moment and see how your body feels as you re-read those words. Are they words of love and faith or is there just a whiff of doubt lingering at their edges?

My guess is it’s the latter. And here’s why:

Whilst you are thinking that the process of creating wealth (in all its forms) is only almost-certain, that is all it will be for you: almost certain, but not quite. So, let’s choose another way of saying it.

To do this, let’s return to the turquoise bracelet at the art bazaar.

Here’s the thing: as I wrote my last post to you, you had already been to the shop, seen the bracelet, tried it on – and bought it! So what happened here? Spooky psychics? Random chance? Meaningless coincidence? Or part of the Weft of Wealth, the Divine Design that surrounds and informs every atom of our universe?

I say it’s part of the Divine Design that underpins life, the innate intelligence that exists within everything. I say that you were drawn to the perfect table displaying jewelry at the perfect time because you had just been synchronizing your breathing and body movements in a way that helped ground you (in the yoga class). I love the lesson of the turquoise because it’s a lesson in trust, a demonstration that all is well, backed up by my writing the post immediately afterwards.

It’s a coincidence in the true meaning of the word: something that co-incides: a synchronicity that proves we are all interconnected. Synchronicities are a great sign that things are happening perfectly. My experience is that when we really have faith, when we “go with the flow” and allow our intuition to lead us in the dance, synchronicities pop up all over the place.

What stops synchronicity in its tracks?  Fear. Every time. It’s not that they aren’t there, it’s just that we get so preoccupied with whatever is frightening us we just don’t SEE what’s staring us in the face. So, when we’re stressed, anxious or having one of those “Dammit, why is life such a pain in the butt?” kind of days, synchronicities still happen – we just don’t notice them.

Fear is what has us ignore the incredible beauty all around us too and prompts us to seek ahead of the moment, fixating us on what we “don’t have” at the expense of revelling in what we do…

So let’s turn your phrase from one of almost-certainty to one that is wrapped in comfort instead. Instead of saying that natural wealth is “almost certainly” renewing itself in various forms in our every moment, let’s choose to say that natural wealth is most definitely renewing itself in many forms, in every nook and cranny of our lives and the lives of everyone on the planet!

How does that make you feel? Is there a whiff of doubt lingering over that phrase? I hope not.

And now let’s move it further, impressing your subconscious in two ways: with words and actions.

Let’s choose an image that fits this change of description. How about “Finding natural wealth is as easy as finding a $7 turquoise bracelet!” or “Natural Wealth is Turquoise Wealth! It finds me wherever I go!” Does that help to shift things?

The key here is to create the feeling inside you that you were experiencing when you walked up to that jewelers table and saw the bracelet. Seems to me you were relaxed, in a good place. So, each time you direct your mind to that feeling, your body will respond by feeling reassured. It’s a simple technique, but it works. Put your attention to what came easily in the past, to what felt good, and you create those things in the present.

Now add something physical to the process. This really helps impress the putty of the subconscious because you involve physical muscle-movement in the process. I advise you to always combine some physical movement with an affirmation. It makes all the difference. In this case, why not wear your bracelet as you say what feels good out loud? Or hold it in your hands. Touch it. Roll the pieces around in your fingers. Feel the smooth stones as you say out loud:

“My doors of opportunity are flung open and cannot be closed because they have been NAILED BACK! I now walk through them with a smile on my face!”

See how that goes!

A quick final note: I love the synchronicity of the turquoise bracelet on the table. I also love the other necklace that you found (the one you made in Santa Fe last year), because it has its own synchronicity too. It’s another demonstration for you that the beauty of natural wealth is most certainly renewing itself, moment by moment, in your life.

Following on from my comments on turquoise and onyx last week I also wrote:

“Thirdly, wear red or rich terracotta colors when possible. Red, being the color of the first chakra, will be a great aid for your core energy.”

I see from the picture you posted that this second necklace has stones in it that are just that color!  (Do you know what they are by the way?). Bingo!

Synchronicities abound in our lives, in every nook and cranny, in each moment. All it takes is the ability to pause, to stop the distractions and to listen to the messages that are reaching us each and every moment of the day. When we do this, timings are perfect, funds flow and energy levels rise. And that’s what Natural Wealth is all about.

Look at it this way: when you take the decision to hand over your life to the 99% of you that is invisible (the Divine Self as I call it) you are putting in a telephone call to the Divine Designer (or whatever you like to call the “infinite spirit” behind and within all nature).  You’re saying to your Divine Self: “I’m ready to do things a new way! Put me in touch with the Divine! I’m ready for Natural Wealth!”

That’s a fine first step in the process – so long as you are available to take the return call when it comes back!

Synchronicities are the evidence of those return calls from the Divine. So whenever you feel fear rising in the chest, direct yourself to the feeling of fearlessness, balance, calm that you had when you found that turquoise necklace, to the feeling that was (as you later discovered) a demonstration of wonderful synchronicity.

Then be ready to pick up the phone when it starts to ring!

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Breathe and Trust – While Wings Are Drying

In my own worst seasons
I’ve come back from the colorless world of despair
by forcing myself to look hard, for a long time, at a single glorious thing:

A flame of red geranium outside my bedroom window.
And then another: My daughter in a yellow dress.
And then another: A perfect outline of a dark sphere behind the crescent moon.

Until I learned to be in love with life again,
like a stroke victim retraining new parts of the brain to grasp lost skills,

I have taught myself joy,
over and over again….                   – Barbara Kingsolver

I found my mind yesterday putting attention on what is not present in my life instead of what is already abundant.  What happened is that I went down into the despair that Barbara Kingsolver talks about above.  I lost myself in a world where I could not even conceive of the limitless possibilities and opportunities that are certainly ready to show themselves to me as my dragonfly wings dry in preparation for flight in my new home.

What is it about the human mind that seeks ahead of the moment, that fixates on the “I don’t have this relationship, money flowing in, health, etc.” and completely ignores what is present right now, while not trusting that all is unfolding itself just as it should?

What is it that has us ignoring the incredible beauty before us which points to our natural wealth that is almost certainly renewing itself in many and various forms in our every moment?

Well, my mind, I suspect, is just as dangerous a place at times as the next person for it really took me for a ride until I realized with a sudden lightening bolt of awareness that there is so much abundance in my life right now…..and MORE is coming!  Before that however, I wrote to you Richard saying:

My mind is attempting to figure out the whole of what is going on here with this continued illness and how best to support myself to come back into balance.  The truth of the matter is that I am having a bit of a hard time.

Part of the emotional release yesterday, which came and went moving fluidly through my body, was admitting that I am scared Richard.  Part of that feels like it arises from not feeling well for what feels like a long time, and the other part is all of the opportunities (that I can’t see very clearly yet, but trust that they are there) before me in this new territory. 

I want to stay true to my heart and the direction of my soul.  Old stuff seems to be intermingled with new stuff. Everything feels like it has been thrown up in the air and I have no idea where all the pieces will land or what relationship I will have with them. “

Interrupting the e-mail to you for a morning yoga class I repeated the mantra you gave me of “I am ready and everything is happening in perfect time” while I drove to the class.   Then I heard that wise inner voice say “you are working at trying to heal yourself instead of surrendering to the wisdom (and cycle) of this illness and resting within the messages that it has for you”.  (wise inner voice gets quote marks!)

In other words taking the time for my wings to dry before flying off into new territory.  The synchronicity of the class was perfect of course and focused on breath opening and finding at least 3 things that we found joy and beauty in during the 90-minute class.  The Barbara Kingslover  poem above happened to be the hand out given to us at the beginning of class.

During the first part of class, when realizing that my breath capacity was immensely decreased and endurance was shaky at best, instead of worrying I watched the breath expand and my shakiness diminish as the class progressed.  Giving myself permission to rest as needed and placing myself in the hands of the teachers guidance (receiving), all I could see and feel was grace and a resonance with my breath (diminished or not!).

As a guide to coming home to authentic and natural breathing,  I have told so many students, just witness the breath and see what gifts and messages it has to bring within each inhale and exhale.  See how your present pattern of breathing reflects your life experience.  Are you acting from fear or love?

Then, if you are not having the life experience you desire, shift your breathing  from contracted and restricted to open and receptive and see what happens.   Like that newborn that is so ready to take that first big inhale and holler (and yes I did Richard!) we have an amazing tool at our disposal.  It is no accident that this temporary illness has affected my breathing passages so acutely.  There is a renewed trust in the wisdom that it has to bring.

As with following the heart and intuition, trusting in the unfolding of ones life also increases the amount of synchronicity that occurs.  Within the last few days there has been an increase in this department.

In addition to the yoga class focus (just for me of course!) there was the turquoise craftsman that showed up as I walked past the Artisan’s Alley on a main street of Austin a few days ago.  Mind you this is before I received your last post Richard.

I was drawn to the turquoise and when asking the craftsman about a particular piece, he was happy to share that this bracelet that I had in my hand was made in Mexico near Sleeping Beauty mine and was very high quality.  Did I notice that it had a clasp in the shape of a heart on it?  I thanked Frank who has been making jewelry for over 30 years, paid my $7, and put the bracelet on as I walked back to my car.

Then after reading your last post Richard I was struck by the synchronicity and realized that I had made a necklace a year ago while I was in Santa Fe, New Mexico, and it incorporated turquoise in the design with a heart locket right at center.  No onyx in that necklace, but a visit to the local bead shop has fixed that.

I am learning that the path to Natural Wealth is paved with trust, faith, synchronicity, lots of color, textures, smells, and rich sounds……and much more.  I look  forward to learning about the “much more”.  I am breathing here….and my wings are still drying….


Someone Has Your Back

“The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance.” -Alan Watts

This evening in a restorative yoga class in my new home of Austin, Texas, where we did partner work in a Thai Massage style, the teacher in his quiet and grounded voice said, “you can let go now of those areas that you are holding onto. Trust that someone has your back”.  He had no idea how deeply this hit me in that moment.

It came to me quite clearly that although I have said to myself, you Richard, and others that I am in trust about the unfolding of my life, the truth of the matter is that there are parts of me that are showing up rather strongly now that have no idea how to trust, especially when it comes to monetary wealth streams – just one of the many energetic ways that wealth shows up in our lives.

Yes, this relocation to a new city – which was completely my choice mind you – represents an opportunity to practice the Universal Laws of Wealth and abundant living way beyond anything I  have ever done before.  I imagine that I must be ready.

Several things converged to make my first couple of days a little challenging including a rather bad case of bronchitis (I never get sick!) which started in the time I was in my “home” town of San Diego 4 days before my arrival here.   After that last post that you did Richard it gave me pause to see just where I might be contracting, and perhaps not in complete alignment with this chosen journey.

In addition, great change can be stressful and when our entire lives are dumped upside down (again by choice!) the emotional reactions can cause some imbalance in the body.  At these times we know that it is best to rest, but sometimes that may not be possible, or we may choose not to.

Coming back around to trust I have decided that the signs that “someone has our back” are around us all of the time!  From the day I quit the “job with benefits” on 7/1, to right now in this very moment I have been supported emotionally, physically, monetarily, spiritually, and basically taken care of in such an amazing way that I am still in awe!  Family, friends, strangers, and you Richard have been the signposts along the way letting me know that “someone has my back”.

This evening as my body relaxed against the young woman in the yoga class who was supporting me in a pose the flash of recognition came that I was holding on, contracting, and doubting that it was OK to really trust.  Not in the pose – but in my life!

My mind tells me that I have 3-4 weeks at most before some streams of income need to be coming in.  Watching over the last few days since I arrived here there is a mental hesitation (and endless inner calculations) about spending money – any money.

Yet my heart knows what is needed right now so the herbs and good organic produce for the bronchitis and for vital health, the special for unlimited yoga classes for my body, heart and soul for the next month, saying yes to receive from a friend here who is temporarily graciously housing me free of any monetary charge, and putting gas in my car to explore this amazing new place I have landed myself in are all part of the trust.

I have decided that really being in the moment with dis-trust and dis-ease is just as powerful as those moments when absolute trust is on board.   They are the life experiences which inform us that we are human….and crack us open to possibility.

So, I am plunging in, moving with it, and doing my own unique dance knowing that someone/something (force of Spirit) always has my back.   Now get up and dance with me to Eric Bibbs  Don’t Let Nobody Drag Your Spirit Down!  It’s all life!!


Dragonfly Message

Dear Gaye,

Yes, as the leap gets closer and closer, those fingers are likely to reach ever-more-frequently for the dark chocolate. And that’s just fine. Enjoying the taste of life (in all its forms) is a blessing.  I guess the trick is to find what you are looking for in the chocolate (the comfort and reassurance) inside you as you go through this huge shift.

We can talk another time about synchronicities and coincidences (the latter, by the way, are literally just that: co-incidents). These happen more and more when you go with the flow, or “follow the weft” as I call it. For today, however, I’d like to bring an image that may help you to be non-resistant through the coming weeks. It’s not a new image (are there any?) but it seems appropriate for you just now.

Think of yourself as a dragonfly. Dragonflies spend two years in larval state, immersed in a lifestyle very different to the one for which they are destined. Beneath the surface of a pond they swim about, hunting for food, surrounded by sub-aquatic life forms. We cannot know how happy or otherwise they are in this state. All we know for sure is that they just “get on with it”.

Then a day dawns when something happens to thrust them into a totally new way of doing things. Instinct prompts them to crawl up the nearest stem. Without questioning why, they inch their way higher and higher up that stem, travelling much further than they ever have before. A few moments later, they emerge through the surface of the pond into a new environment. Suddenly they are surrounded by air instead of liquid. Unperturbed, they sit quietly, waiting: trusting in the outcome.

As the sun rises in the sky the dragonfly larva is warmed by its rays. And now it undergoes a remarkable transformation. The old husk or outer skin falls away and from it emerges the scintillating long-winged creature, sparkling with greens, blues, reds and golds that we are all familiar with. Is there pain involved in this process? Perhaps. Sloughing off its familiar skin must be at very least unusual. It’s the first time anything like this has happened.

For a few minutes the newly formed dragonfly continues to cling to the stem, the umbilical cord linking it to its old life beneath water. It is not yet ready to take flight. During these minutes its body quivers, its wings (the vehicles of transport that it will now use) vibrating with energy. When it is ready, it launches itself off the stem, flying up and out into a life lived in an entirely new environment.

Think of that tiny creature for a moment. Up until that time it has had no notion of the “world above”. It has been satisfied to dwell beneath the surface of the pond, bound by the parameters of sub-aquatic life. Does it have an inkling that a different life is in store for it? We can’t know that for sure. But what we do know is that it does not resist the transformation that lies in wait. It follows the calling of its instincts without hesitation. It trusts in the outcome, even though it cannot comprehend the full extent of the changes it is about to experience.

Much the same happens to us when we are born. Each and every human on the planet was once familiar with a life surrounded by liquid. Yet each of us emerges from life in the womb to suck in great gasps of air, eschewing the umbilical cord that has supported us for the past nine months as we transform ourselves into beings that walk, talk and eat in a whole new way.  Yes, birth is a challenge: but we do it anyway, because it is the only way we can live the life that is destined for us at our conception.

Right now, you are undergoing a birth of sorts. You are casting off the umbilical cord (the support system of a “regular job”) just as surely as you did when you emerged from your mother’s womb. You are being drawn irresistibly up the stem into a new world, like the dragonfly in our image.

I would say that right now you are at the stage where you are still heading up the stem, immersed in the liquid of the old way of life. Keep going. The journey to the surface is not so long and it is worth the effort. For the result will be that you are able to dovetail creating income with health, love and perfect self-expression: all of which are essential ingredients of Natural Wealth.

A final thought for you:

It is as the fully formed creature that flies in air that the dragonfly expresses itself most completely, its iridescent colours shining brightly in the morning sun, its flight sure and definite. It is in its new life above water that it meets other dragonflies, one of which it will mate with in order to create the next generation of dragonflies, all of whom will spend most of their time beneath water, but are all of whom are destined to rise into the air in much the same way as humans are.

Trust in the message of the dragonfly, Gaye. It is a message of non-resistance. Relax and enjoy the process (and eat as much chocolate as you like!). When you relax and smile you are showing yourself and others that you do not resist the changes you are going through. And that makes you a magnet for all that is good in life, because when you no longer resist life’s challenges you become truly irresistible!

To put it another way, bear in mind the old proverb: “A man who cannot smile should not open a shop!”

Until next time, much love,

Free Fall – Will The Parachute Open?

The next question could be  – Is there a parachute at all?!  I have never jumped from an airplane, but the present journey that I am on feels like I have, and I am not quite certain that I have put on a parachute – or even more, if I even need one!

Talking to some friends last week on one of those rare sunny days in Portland, Oregon we decided that there are many possibilities here.  Yes, there may be a parachute, or maybe one isn’t even needed, for perhaps there is nothing to fall or crash into. Maybe we sprout wings on the way down….or maybe we aren’t falling down, but moving sideways or up for that matter!

Life may just be a continuous free fall and we either enjoy the ride, or panic and attempt to stop our fall by forgetting to trust.  Just maybe the fall itself is the journey and all we have to do is become one with it.  Well, I am not certain yet what it is, but life is teaching me a thing or two these days.

Lofty words indeed for I have to admit that I have not perfected the free fall just yet – though I am staying as conscious as possible during the faster parts!  When I reach for that dark chocolate one too many times with 16 days left until I am “unemployed”, I know that there is a little bit of anxiety going on.  Now there is nothing wrong with dark chocolate – oh how I love it – but there is a place in me that yearns to be reassured that everything is going to be OK…..and for the few moments of delicious surrender I know that everything is as it should be.  What I want is to know that place inside of me all the time….with or without the chocolate!

Richard talked about two things in his last post that are recurrent themes for me on this path to natural wealth.  The first is resistance and the second synchronicity.  I have found that they both can be great teachers, just in different ways.   A couple of years ago now I wrote a chapter in a book called “Resistance Is Futile, and A Doorway To Freedom” (Conscious Entrepreneurs, Edited by Christine Kloser) .  During this time I kept being presented with opportunities to feed my resistance (fear/scarcity), or to step into it and see what was behind the good old resistance door # 1.

The funny thing is that I find stepping through the resistance doorway always leads to a fall into the realm of possibility, opportunity, and new awareness.  Now if you are visual here you can imagine what that might look like!  Alice falling down the rabbit hole??

This of course is part of Natural Wealth.  That good old saying, “what you resist, persists” means to me that someone is using a whole lot of energy holding back from an experience, person, or feeling when instead they can choose to either engage or to walk away.   That is – take action instead of staying stuck!

My example in the chapter was a many years resistance to a style of yoga that I thought was not yoga at all but a workout, and boring in its repetition at that.  Of course I was constantly being faced to engage with it when my yoga students would ask me whether I had any opinion about  this style of yoga.

What I found as I said yes to this practice (instead of judging what I had never personally experienced), and stepped into the 100 degree room that first time, is that when it comes right down to it the melting (literally!) of resistance was a step into freedom.

My energy was not tied up in resisting, I learned that there were parts of the practice that I benefited from immensely,  and I was learning that surrender in the moment was much more enlightening and leads to freedom of choice.  Once I was more open synchronicity started to play out in my life much more than usual.  In fact I was invited to teach a class on breathing at this very same yoga studio which expanded the practice for everyone.

Let’s just say that resistance cannot be a part of my present journey at all, and because of that synchronicity (not a result of cause and effect) is playing out in a big way!  Part of wealth is to pay attention to the constant flow in and out of our lives of signs, signals, symbols and synchronicity.   Letting go of the resistance not only seems to enhance the frequency of synchronicity, but it sharpens our senses of perception.

Some people dismiss synchronicity as coincidence, but I see and feel it as grace and a definite sign post on the path to Natural Wealth.  Not a day passes that I don’t see, feel and experience synchronicity. It is difficult to single out just one incident,  but here is an example.

Out of the blue a man that I had know briefly when I was in a yoga ashram 7 years ago, found me on Facebook and asked to “be my friend”.  I recognized who it was and of course said yes which gave him access to e-mail me.

This man has, for the past few years, been a global traveler and currently is living in Columbia, South America.   As we shared life journeys he found that I was to take a leap to a new home and was quitting my job. He thought that I might want to be in touch with a few other people that were at the ashram at the same time as I was, so he alerted a couple of them.

Very soon I heard from a woman whom I had also know at the ashram saying that she lived in Tecate, Mexico now and was teaching yoga at a resort.  If I was ever down that way she would love to see me.

As it turns out my trip towards my new home has a stop in San Diego (my home town) and the resort she works at is only a short distance from there across the border.  I have been invited to have a free overnight at the resort which is only a couple of days after my birthday.  Synchronicity or coincidence?

So here is an idea:  How about a Free Fall Into The Resistance??


Divine Wallops and Non-Resistance

Dear Gaye,

I was amused at your resistance to the word “demand” in my last post and the image of the willful child stamping its metaphorical feet! The beauty of this process is that whilst there are certain laws (and I know your resistance to this word too!) that are immutable, how each of us interprets and applies them is entirely up to us. What works for me may not work for you. So, substituting the word “declare” for “demand” is perfect!

One thing I would add on to this is that whether demanding or declaring our definite leads, the important part of the process is our willingness to accept whatever those leads are: and to follow them immediately, knowing that ALL outcomes are perfect.

Einstein was clear that the more we study the world around us, the more we come to the inescapable conclusion that there is what he called an “Infinite Intelligence” running through it all. When we declare or demand our desire for definite leads, rewards reach us when we listen to the nudges from that Infinite Intelligence.

You have just finished moving house which is a notoriously “stressful” experience for us all, so I thought to remind you of one definition of stress, which is simply: “the difference between how life actually is and how you think it should be.”

One key to feeling less stressed is to be non-resistant about everything that happens.  Everything. That’s not always easy. We have preconceived ideas about how “things should work out.”  We’re taught to be very specific about desired outcomes.  When things don’t follow the course that we think they should, we can get disappointed, frustrated, angry.  That’s when sleepless nights, health challenges and other symptoms of “poverty” can occur.

The simplest way to avoid all this is to “go with the flow” of events.  The reason being that by going with the flow we’re handing over the reins to the part of us that is in direct contact with Einstein’s Infinite Intelligence: our intuition and instinct.  We’re showing total trust in the process, rather than trying to push our ego against the weft.

Something that helped me get my head around this was being told that whatever is going on at any moment is not happening “to” us, but it actually a direct result of our underlying thoughts and feelings. You talk of the interconnectedness of all things and I’m right with you here. Events and actions are not separate to us.  We create them.  Outcomes are all lessons, showing us whether we’re following our Divine Path and indicating clearly whether or not we’re listening to those Nudges we were talking about in recent posts.

To go with the flow, we must learn to follow those Divine Nudges, no matter how irrational they appear to be. This takes away the strain of saying “this should be the outcome” and removes the disappointment when something evolves differently to our preconceived ideas.  The message is clear: we ignore our Divine Nudges at our peril.  Continue to ignore them, and we’ll get something far more dramatic: what I call a Divine Wallop.  This is when life really seems to whack you round the head with a hard object.  What’s going on here in reality is that you’re being given a wake-up call, a boot up the backside that hoofs you back onto your Divine Path, whether you like it or not!

I promised you that I’d share with you what happened to me when I got my Divine Wallop.  So, here’s the story:

Some years ago I went into hospital for a routine operation.  It turned out to be anything but routine.  Instead of “coming round” afterwards, I had what I subsequently discovered to be a classic “near death experience.” Medically dead for a few minutes (at least in terms of modern medicine) a part of me left my body and looked around at what was going on. I could see doctors and nurses rushing to and fro. I could see my own body lying on the bed beneath me. Then I discovered I could see through walls at what was happening on the other side.

I remember looking out of the hospital, way out into the distance where there were green hills and trees. And this is where things got interesting. Wherever I looked, I could see things close-up, almost as though through a microscope. I could see tree bark as if it were under my nose, blades of grass as though I were the same size as they were. This happened the instant I turned my attention to a particular place. And yet I was also conscious that a part of me was “back here” too, hovering somewhere over the body that I had just left behind. I was everywhere at once, not separated from any part of the whole. Yet there was still a sense of identity.

I was just getting really fascinated by this when I was given a real choice. “Forward or back.” Initially I didn’t answer. I was too interested in what was going on. But the question came again. This time I had an immediate “flash” of my family, my children and the answer “Back” came to my mind. The next instant I was indeed “back” – back inside the body that moments before I had been “above”, with air rushing into my lungs as though someone were pumping them up with a huge pair of bellows.

The rest, as they say, is history.

This is a quick version of the story and I’m including it here because it was my personal “Divine Wallop”, my kick up the backside to get on with things, to understand that there is no separation between our “ego” and the world around us, that everything is interconnected in what I call the “Weft of Natural Wealth” – and most importantly, to trust in the process, to see that life is only a struggle if we insist that it is, whereas the reality is that when we no longer resist the nudges that we all receive each and every day, it becomes a game that we can enjoy.

A game with rules, for sure: but one which even the most willful of children can play so long as the will is for doing what is best for the common good rather than just for ourselves.  That’s one of the tenets of following the Divine Path to Natural Wealth: the simple rule that in doing what is best for all others, we are helping to take care of ourselves, which is where the compassion for all life that you speak of comes in.

The easiest way to do this is to become as non-resistant as a non-stick pan! A lot of people resist the idea of this, because they are frightened of somehow “losing themselves” in the mix.  They fear that handing over in total trust will somehow make them more vulnerable, when the opposite is actually the case.  Living in trust means not resisting how things are. It means paying attention to each and every one of the Nudges so that they do not become Wallops.  When we do this, the worry falls away and things start happening differently.  Synchronicities begin to pop up like magic all over the place and life is the better for them!  Instead of “losing ourselves” we find that when we really pay attention to our nudges (which we feel as intuitions), we are already far more than we had previously imagined.