Doubt and Fear Banished by Throwing Away Climbing Gear!
Dear Richard – A year ago last July I wrote a prologue and one chapter for a book that I wanted to write on the breath. It then sat for an entire year patiently waiting for me to renew the contract with my commitment to bring it to life.
The commitment that was so alive a year ago was buried underneath doubt. Doubt that I had what it takes to complete the book and bring it to publication. And going more deeply, doubt that I had something of value to share with others.
Instead I had put attention on a job that was not nourishing me, and a lifestyle based in scarcity and lack. As many of you know who read this blog regularly, that has changed significantly over the last few months as the leap (read “action”) was taken to a new home environment, and a blossoming of the creative and autonomous life that I was innately craving inside manifested on the outside as well.
Richard you spoke of “taking action”, and trusting instead of having hope when those illusional walls seem to be right smack in front of you. After taking such a strong action on behalf of my dreams and thriving just 2 months ago I was under the illusion that it would be easy from then on to see beyond the doubts and fears that arise from time to time. But somehow the wall still got erected in my mind.
Now I realize that those doubts and fears can sometimes be there as a necessary stimulus to come face-to-face with. Then the opportunity is there to breathe the feelings that arise through the body, thus creating space for something else to take their place.
Take this book that I had put off for so long. Instead of continuing to dwell in scarcity of monetary streams in my life, which had most certainly erected that wall brick by brick – I chose instead last week to put aside 3 days to unplug from all outside contact and electronic media.
During that time I developed an outline for the completion of the book and all the steps necessary to bring it to publication; listed people that would support me in the process, edit, and write great reviews to put on the inside and outside covers; wrote 12,000 words; and completed over 50% of the first draft of the book.
This was a decision born out of trusting in who I am and the quality and value of what I have to bring out into the world. I was positive that clarity and a sense of creative accomplishment would take the place of doubt and fear. As it turns out, I received much more than that!
During immersion in the process of writing I found that there was a creative muse inside and a host of guidance from other places streaming words right through my fingers onto the screen before me. During food and time out in nature breaks the fact that this was actually happening had me in awe of the simple act of trusting in dreams and taking heart based action towards them.
The outcome of this simple move from resistance (based in fear and doubt I suspect) to creative action resulted in opening into a wide open expanse to play in (no walls here), delight in playing with words, moments of complete surprise, wonder and gratitude about what was moving through me, lots of laughter (guaranteed better than insect repellent for doubt and fear bugs!)…….and an ability to experience what happens when you simply “unplug” from distractions and plug into what you Richard would call the Divine Design of your life. . (see most recent post on BreathingSpaces – STOP! Unplug – Focus One Point and Breathe)
How do I feel now on the other side of this 3-days? Excited that I no longer need to put on climbing gear to scale the walls! In fact I am presently dancing with my arms open wide. To be continued as this book takes shape….
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Posted on September 8, 2011, in Authentic Expression, Divine Design and tagged authentic expression, creativity and trust, Divine Design, Gaye Abbott, Natural Wealth, Natural Wealth Journal, Richard Cawte, tapping into creative muse, wokring with fear and doubt, writing a book. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.