The Wall That Is Not There

Dear Richard –

Sitting here with my cuppa Earl Grey tea I find myself reflecting on a very powerful dream that I had several years ago.  I call it powerful because it is still very clear to this day, and in fact is quite relevant right now as I find myself feeling that I am “up against a wall” and there is no room to see what is beyond it.

First my dream.  This dream came at a time when I was struggling to “find my way” to what in life would bring me joy and fulfillment.  I was traveling on a path to a place of “higher learning” and was one of many in a line walking along a dirt path through forest.

All of a sudden the path ended and a clearing was before us, but also a ledge with a steep cliff side below.  All of my attention was drawn to this quite treacherous abyss and as I looked over it I saw others attempting to climb or rappel down the cliff using all kinds of gear.  There was also a very narrow rock path that serpentined it’s way down, but as I watched these people they seemed to be struggling as well.

Now my decision had to be made as to how I was going to get down there in order to get to my destination.  I stood there and closed my eyes and asked for guidance.  As I did that a very low whisper coming from the vicinity of my heart said, “Look to your left”.

My eyes opened and I looked to my left (my feminine side).  There was a path that had appeared – or it was there all along, but I hadn’t been expanding  my vision into possibility.  As I traced the path with my eyes to my surprise I saw the “place of higher learning” was not far on this easy downward slopping road.  No struggle was necessary.  Simply a stroll to my “destination” – to awareness.

This dream sticks with me because it continues to provide the very clear guidance that I need when I seem to be stuck – up against a wall that feels immovable!

Whether cliff or wall they both represent to me the illusion that something is preventing me from moving forward.  That “something” certainly requires a lot of struggle, effort, and risk taking as well.  Something I need to conquer or dismantle in order to get past it or to the other side.

This “wall” for me right now is the seeming lack of not having streams of income flowing in to support me while I am busy in the creations stages.   I have to admit that my mind took me on one of those very scary roller coaster rides over the last couple of days, and the emotions that go with that were certainly felt as I looked at my bank balance!  I even caught myself thinking about applying for jobs!  But the difference this time around was that I could witness what my mind was doing and begin to detach from the feeling of “no room to move”.

When I found myself working with the texture, thickness, and architecture of this wall that I seemed to be pushing against it hit me that I needed to stop pushing….because there was no wall at all.  No wall blocking me from the unlimited resources and creative ideas that are there for me as close as my next breath.  It was only a construct of fear and scarcity.  It was only an illusion.  It was only that I had fallen out of trust.

Now I have decided that if my mind tries this little trick again I will simply put my hands up in the air on that roller coaster ride and laugh all the way down.  Do you think that will deconstruct the illusions??

With Love,
Gaye

 

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NATURAL PASSAGES CONSULTING Inspiring New Possibilities, Living From the Heart of Life While Co-creating Well Being of Body, Being, Heart and Planet….One Breath At A Time. Gaye Abbott, is a wild and free soul who just so happens to LOVE writing, playing with energy, ecstatic dance and free form movement, living and breathing in nature, her 3 sons and 3 grandchildren, communing with friends and global community, organic food and cooking, small and simple spaces to live within, a lack of material possessions....and laughter every single day! As a wise elder of 69 years she feels decades younger....and acts it too! Devoted to being of service to the Earth and all living beings Gaye seeks the peace of mind and openness of heart that provides the foundation for effective action in the world and her community. http://www.GayeAbbott.com OTHER BLOGS BY GAYE ABBOTT: www.WildlyFreeWoman.com www.BreathingSpaces.net www.LifeAtWolfCreek.com Give Us This Day Our Daily Breath Preview, Reviews and purchase links can be found here: http://gayeabbott.com/books/

Posted on August 27, 2011, in Flow of Faith, Living From The Heart, Natural Wealth and tagged , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. Gaye,

    I know full well what you are experiencing at present, Fear is sometimes very healthy..When my Fear shows it’s ugly head, I know full well I have a Free Will to chose my Options..let go and let be..not always easy, But, who was it that said..Life is perpetual change, without it, we are stagnant and not fulfilling that which we were put on the earth to do. Be Brave My Friend,

    Sue O’

  2. Thank you for the depth of your comment my friend. Yes, we always have choice…… and thank goodness for the perpetual change for it leads us along the Divine Path that is uniquely ours to walk upon. Love!

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