Uncomfortable Territory – Expanding Consciousness

Expanding consciousness is the riskiest enterprise on earth. We endanger the status quo. We endanger our comfort. And if we do not have the nerve  to resolve the ensuing conflicts, we endanger our sanity.   – Marilyn Feguson

When one embarks on changing the status quo of their life the ensuing adventure (for that is what I would like to call it) is filled with “wake up calls” all along the way – or what Richard has called “Divine nudges”. We are given the opportunity to choose an act of fear or an act of love….and to decide whether we are in old beliefs that no longer serve us, or trust and faith that we are being lead in exactly the right direction for the next step along the path.

This past week there were two wake up calls that made me realize that things are heating up a bit since I decided to move to Austin in a couple of months (and I don’t mean the Texas weather either!). By heating up I mean events that allow me to see the deeper contractions or beliefs that will ultimately get in my way as I expand both personally, in this relocation shift, and in my creative endeavors.

Have any of you had a glitch in the gas gauge of your car? This particular malfunction had those little bars that show how much gas you have not showing a full tank when I decided to scrimp a bit and only fill partially. Well there seemed to be two things going on here (besides the mechanical reason for this incident). One was the contraction around filling the tank completely due to distrust of a flow of wealth.

The second was even more revealing. Although I had a full tank of gas to drive to Portland the little bars were not reflecting that at all, but instead were telling me that it was definitely time to get gas. It was then that I realized I routinely checked that gauge constantly (like every few minutes it seemed!) and now I had to TRUST that all was well and that I had plenty of gas without being able to see the visible signs of it on my gauge.

Well, at first it was OK because I knew that I had just filled the tank up. Then as a few days passed I felt the discomfort in seemingly “not knowing” whether I had “enough” or not. Finally I got it! I did have enough gas to get me where I was going because when it was time to get more then one of the 3 bars would disappear.  Big breath….relaxing now!

However, I had to feel this, and trust my intuition and knowing because it was not visible to my eye (and my mind was too busy having an anxiety attack!) The questions before me reflected a far greater belief system of scarcity – How many other ways in my life do I not trust my knowing? How often do I discount the resources that are within me (my own inner gas tank) and actually all around, because I can’t see the evidence?

Acting from fear and scarcity only brought on more of the same. Acting from a knowing of wealth and “enough”, which certainly to me translates into coming from a place of love and trust,  gently pushed me along the way towards acceptance that everything would be OK,

Next post will tell the story of the second wake up call – a tale of reaching a self imposed limit to receiving….ouch!!… all in the same week!  Your turn Richard!




About Gaye Abbott

NATURAL PASSAGES CONSULTING Inspiring New Possibilities, Living From the Heart of Life While Co-creating Well Being of Body, Being, Heart and Planet….One Breath At A Time. Gaye Abbott, is a wild and free soul who just so happens to LOVE writing, playing with energy, ecstatic dance and free form movement, living and breathing in nature, her 3 sons and 3 grandchildren, communing with friends and global community, organic food and cooking, small and simple spaces to live within, a lack of material possessions....and laughter every single day! As a wise elder of 69 years she feels decades younger....and acts it too! Devoted to being of service to the Earth and all living beings Gaye seeks the peace of mind and openness of heart that provides the foundation for effective action in the world and her community. http://www.GayeAbbott.net OTHER BLOGS BY GAYE ABBOTT: www.WildlyFreeWoman.com www.BreathingSpaces.net www.LifeAtWolfCreek.com Give Us This Day Our Daily Breath Preview, Reviews and purchase links can be found here: http://gayeabbott.net/books/

Posted on May 6, 2011, in Flow of Faith, Living From The Heart, Natural Wealth and tagged , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.

  1. Sue O'Murphy


    As far as I can see…your tank is always FULL! in every way..the decision to move to Austin is MARVELOUS…adventure beckons, its as if you were growing new limbs, with which to go even further and yet closer to the Self. How Dear you are my friend…Sue O’ GO GIRL!!

  2. Thank you Sue for this great comment and your applause for my leaps of faith and following my heart!! There is a great picture – one of my favorites! – that shows Buddhist monks with beautiful bald heads and orange robes sitting in a roller coaster at the top just as the great ride down has begun. Their arms are in the air and their faces lit up with the pure adventure of it. That is me right now!! Love! G.

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