Negotiating The Overpass – Creating Another Game
Here I am in Austin, Texas completing my last day of exploration for potential relocation. When first guided to check out this city with “soul” I just laughed out loud for it seemed rather outrageous for a Southern California, liberal, alternative health and mindset, spiritual, natural countryside dweller, wildly free woman to be looking at relocating to urban Texas!
However, what I have learned is that we tend to label ourselves such and such, thus locking out any possibilities that may have us grow, expand, and look beyond what we have done and who we have been in the past. Such a seductive thing to identify ones self by certain characteristics, place of birth, family up bringing, past professions, or whatever else that we have attached to ourselves. In addition, we also do the same thing to places and people that we really don’t know from personal experience.
I am discovering that being whole is an entirely different game to play than the one that keeps most of us locked in the narrow confines of past experience. For example, there are overpasses in Austin that on first (and just maybe beyond that!) navigation scare you to death! These overarching one car overpasses have very little guard rail and when that wind blows it feels just like a roller coaster ride upon which you have very little control.
In a way the process of finding your natural wealth expression in the world is like driving over one of those bridges. It is new territory, confidence is required, there is quite an expansive view from up there (all those possibilities!), and all you can do is move forward (there is definitely no turning back!). On the down side of the bridge it is simply an easy flow to the main artery of the next freeway, or a quick exit to other surface roads.
My time here in Austin has been easy, flowing, and filled with great people and wonderful experiences, which all of course have contributed to my intention to feel into this place from my heart….and not the head. While swimming in an outdoor lap pool of fresh cool water yesterday with the gentle, slightly humid warmth caressing me, there were moments of complete rapture. It was completed when I was able to take an outdoor shower (in the ladies dressing room of course!) and feel into how incredible it is to be without clothes in nature with a great overarching oak above me.
However, today it felt like I was attempting to either back up or turn around on that high over arching bypass. My head got involved! There is a balance between practicality and trust. Last night I realized that I would most probably be relocating to Austin. Last night, my head told me I shouldn’t waste time and needed to “make the most” of my last day here (today) and I plotted out some temp agencies to check out. (suggested by the person I am staying with)
Many of us often tend to listen to the advice or seemingly wise counsel of another, and by-pass what our heart is, and has been, telling us all along. Most people are playing the game that is most popular for our culture and making decisions on what is best for their own lives from those “rules”.
However, the game of my own creation that best supports creativity, authentic expression and thriving – feels to be the pathway to innate natural wealth and joy. Along the way I get to fine tune judgement, learn valuable lessons, and simply appreciate those people who care enough about me to offer guidance.
As Richard has noted in the last post, sharing with those that support your journey no matter how it turns out is important, but also one needs to be able to distinguish between what is deeply true for yourself and what is the path of another. Great discernment here. Staying aware of thinking processes that tempt one to bail on choices of the heart feels to be mandatory in this journey.
I will end with telling you that as I sat and filled out at least 12 double-sided pages of application for the temp agency (reminder here – I am moving out of “jobs”) my heart and intuition kept saying – “why the heck are you doing this?? Just leave now!” I even had a very difficult time finding the agency and it took me several tries to get there, unlike the ease I had experienced over the last several days.
The “responsible part” of me completed the application process, but when handing the paperwork in I opted out of meeting with a representative of the agency to continue on with the process. It was obviously not in alignment with my purpose for being in Austin.
Perhaps this last experience was a necessary part of the journey. To remember and appreciate who I am and what I am looking for….to learn my own lessons on the path and to always trust my heart and intuition.
By the way, Austin is a wildly free place of great alternative and conscious thinking with cultural diversity, ecological awareness, trees everywhere, very friendly people, and a consciousness that I would have to say is quite liberal for Texas. It also happens to be the live music capital of the world. Shall I move to Austin?? Stay tuned….
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Posted on April 20, 2011, in Authentic Expression, Divine Design, Game of Life, Natural Wealth and tagged Acting from fear or love?, Austin, authentic expression, Divine Design, Divine Wealth, follow the heart, Gaye Abbott, Livelihood in alignment with values and heart, Natural Wealth, Natural Wealth Journal, relocation to Austin, Richard Cawte, security and wealth, Texas, wealth mindsets. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.